no ordinary love

alas

2007-07-12T03:32:00.000+08:00

i've got a so called "new" computer for my graphics work.. kinda happy but yet after 3 days.. its not done... why? there seem to be some error with the old motherboard i am using.. theres some conflict of drivers or something.. wasting my time man ! up to now i still dunno wats wrong.. :( considering i am good at repairing computers.. yet this is one of the most problematic computer i have met...

but wat to do.. dun have the cash to buy a new motherboard and cpu and ram.. have to just make do with more ram, and a new dvd writer and new 19" screen which totally rox ! its damm huge lah.. lolz.. very happy with that..

so my AMD cpu and motherboard with stanley oh from my air base gave me.. couldnt work :( still using my old dell 667mhz pentium3 computer which is turning yellow btw but still works like a charm.. its pretty good stuff i would say.. considering my computer is on 24hrs..

so now i am installing windows XP on the cpu and motherboard sanjay gave me.. sigh.. i dun even know how fast is the cpu.. if it lags too much for any graphics work.. i might really have to get a new cpu and motherboard and ram.. which means at least $500-$600 :( sigh.... prays its fast enough for some work....

well this has been ermm.. the worst 2-3 months of my whole damm life lah... nothing seems to be going on track.. in terms of :
1) work- i hate my colleauge -_-\\\
2) biz- it has been really slow pace-very tiring doing it alone
3) bike- i lost track of how much i spent on it.. speechless
4) love- the one i love aint in love with me, the wrong people fell for me -_-

thats enough shit for 2-3 months i guess !

i need a holiday really badly man.. ! anywhere is good.. just get me out of this shit for awhile....

Durian gloves

2007-07-07T05:25:00.001+08:00

they just bring back fond memories.. why something so simple is so meaningful and able to activate certain emotions in me..

The first time using them was during poly days.. my CCA, The Adventure Seekers... we had to do pioneering... which is to built those huge structure for NP open house and where sec school students and visitors are able to try the elements we built.. wearing those DURIAN GLOVES to tie knots and lashings... it was tears, sweat, blood.. and many more... its tough but yet really fun.. TASIC.. the best thing that happend to me in my poly life..

Yet another time DURIAN GLOVES were used was during my YEP project to vietnam.. we had to build a class room for the village peeps.. and yes its hard work again.. thats one of the best trip i had... i love to travel.. not in luxury.. but backpack style.. somehow u get to see alot of things in a different light.. people are not so fake.. and gives u good service cos u paid a leg or arm for it... u eat like the locals do.. u pay the same price.. no special clean plates or special chairs.. nothing.. i like that.. :)

Third time i remembered using these DURIAN GLOVES is during my bike lessons at bbdc.... its cos i crash my car so i wanted a trasport badly.. so thats why i took a bike license.. now i love biking to the core.. i used to think its damm dangerous( i still do agree its dangerous) and its like when i drove.. i dun give a damm to bikers.. i squeeze them to the sides.. and i feel powerful.. with the metal protection i had.. it was den after taking my bike license that made me realise... they are humans too.. they have a right to be on the road. and such.. so yeah i am a safe driver and biker now.. but who knows wat will happend the next time i am biking... theres always this big question mark when u ask a biker who is single..

If your half body paralyse, who will take care of u ? its either they choose not to think of that question to deny the fear or the emptiness that they have.. perhaps thats why bikers tend to look for bikers as a partner(jiahui now u know why sooooo many guys are after u ah? :P ahboy, WHAHA).. somehow they will understand this deep fear and passion.. i guess this is the thin line btw life and death btw bikers that makes bikers closer den compared to car drivers.. well its an unspoken bond which seems to appear from god knows where.. no one has an explanation nor reason for such feelings..

well well heres the end of the durian gloves story of mine..

Just Time

2007-07-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

Is time a factor?

Or just a chapter

Looking at the weather

Wiliting like a flower

That burning desire

Just like my fire

In dire

Just a lil poetry written about how i feel.. and it somehow looks like a heart.. aww.. well~

gab

been told to update my blog

2007-06-27T03:56:00.000+08:00

but hrmphs.. blogs do make people sad at times..
hiaz...

neway my biz is back on track, got my domain registered, web hosting settled and a few others.. which is good :)

its been really busy lately.. helping uncle alex with his office computer and stuff.. work has been alright.. a tad busy lately.. and more stuff is spoilt.. so hmm... but manageble i guess...

was out for sinful supper the other day with weiqi.. wat a jerk bf she has gotten herself loh ! a two timer ass.. and yet she is so soft hearted to continue this crap... hiaz... he is making use of her with her under paid job.. weiqi ! ur a famous apparel designer.. dun let yourself fall into this deep dark whirl of sadness and sorrow.. u deserve better den this ! go for a proper job..

well nothing much has really happend to my already boring life so yeah..

my vespa is now parked at my house carpark and yeah :) its cool..

yawns.. its 4am in the morning and i aint sleeping.. damm.. had a bad headache and slept for awhile.. now better but cant get back to sleep so yeah.. heres my boring life... very typical of most bloggers.. blogging about their daily lives.. which i find a bore to read.. so yeah.. it shall be one of the few daily blogging which i have done..

cheers
gab

A good read

2007-06-22T02:31:00.000+08:00

An article that I find it's very meaningful...
Just to share this with you...

Those who are single may learn something from here? those who are already married may take this as a guideline to improve your marriage?

During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question, "How do I know if I married the right person?" I noticed that there is a large man sitting next to her, so I said, "It depends. Is that your husband?" In all seriousness, she answered, "How do you know?" Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing in your mind? Every relationship has a cycle.
In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse. You anticipated their call, wanted their touch and liked their idiosyncrasies. Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it is called "Falling In Love".

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept off my feet". Think about the imaginery of that expression. It implies that you were just standing there, doing nothing and then something came along and HAPPENED to you. Falling in love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens) and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts. The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking "Did I marry the right person?" and as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when marriages breakdown.

People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment. Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious but sometimes people turn to work a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV or abusive substances. But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it. I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You COULD. And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this): THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON, IT IS LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND. SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll never just happen to you.

You can't "find" LASTING love. You have to "make" it day in and day out. That's why we have the expression "the labour of love". Because it takes time, effort and energy, and most importantly, it takes WISDOM.

You have to know what to do to make your marriage work. Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage. Just there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger. It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable? you can "MAKE" love?

Sentimental

2007-06-16T01:54:00.000+08:00

I think i shouldnt have sms-ed her in the first place... hmm.. its making me think a whole load more.. and thats not good..

sometimes i just wonder why she doesnt have any initiative. its always me me me.. and yes i am tired of this.. hmrphs.. she never doesnt initiate smses and stuff.. why do some gals claim to have a liking towards u but yet let u do all the work.. and once ur done with tons of work.. in the end its just like its not enough !

abit of an emo post this is.. but yeah it cant be read by anyone... perhaps not yet... till i am ready to let these expired thoughts be published.. perhaps when all i felt doesnt matter in anymore.. sad to say it didnt matter right frm the start.. well well well..

met up with aaron today and yeah he is going to get my website down up and stuff.. needa do write up which i've been dragging myself to do.. i really needa concentrate hard man gabriel..

today was a fucked up day.. my dumb ass boot licker colleugue of mine approached me saying wat i spoke bad about him behind his back... and stuff.. way too childish.. and since he is being transfered to another dept.. i dun give a shit about it anymore... and like i have predicted.. he managed to brain wash a new guy in my dept.. who has no common sense and such.. truely and insult to diploma holders.. its a mean thing to say.. but wait till i tell u wat he has done.. even a 10year old wouldnt do such a thing....

he is being made a puppet by that boot licker.. soon he will realise.... i am not one bit intrested in staying is this dumb place of where i am working right now... i learn NOTHING for the past few months... its a back dated place.. the first day i walked into the damm office it was a step back into time.. into the 1980s... everything is slow paced and relax and chill and yeah.. i just cant do this kinda job.. i love to be on my toes.. communication with different people... meeting new people etc... i am secluded in this lame pit of shit ! i hate ranting on and on about my job.... i seriously hate it ! but its really killing my passion and soul.... its making me sick...

well well well well.......... hope the bloody HR is doing some work ! if i am not happy staying there.. i wun do a good job.. if they wanna fuck with me. i can fuck back with them.... i can choose not to answer my hp... they aint paying one cent anyway.. i have my rights and i do have a choice whether to answer ornot... so yeah..

this place is just restricting me man... i'm not new to the work force... so yah.. damm it..

But i do admit i'm damm short tempered.. it might be my downfall.. i might not be tactful when it comes to certain things.. knowing where i stand.. i hope to change.. if i can quit smoking which i have done for 11 years.. i seriously dun see why i cant change this flaw of mine.. learn how to communicate efficiently... thats the real cause of why people get angry.. cos its either they cant get others to understand.. or others cant understand them.. therefore they get pissed, either with themselves or with others...

Another flaw of mine is i look down on people sometimes.. its crazy to admit this flaw over the net where everyone can read it.. but yeah.. i dare do the un-do-able, i look down on people like that guy in my dept... i really should change that mindset of mine as well.. hrmphs... after reading some self improvement books.. i realised that everyone has a value :) make that person work your way... w/o coming across as snobbish or such... that boot licker has been doing a good job.. he has got alot of people playing his game.. thats something which i look up to... i still have lots to learn..

damm.. it feels kinda good now after writing all this crap.. cos i dun really have a special someone to share how i feel and such.. its indeed a nice place to ermm.. transform my thoughts into words and such.. :)

i feel happy..

Wreck

2007-06-11T04:04:00.000+08:00

Yes I am indeed in a sorrow state now. No fear of being perceived as a weakling and such. I am a fucking wreck ! I’ve just got so much on my hands its mad ! I am about to suffer from depression or stress or something.. why so? Cos I have losta stuff yet to be done.

1)Have my biz up
2)My job with regards to my pay increment
3)My bike has been giving me problems
4)My love life which doesn’t exist in the first place

I swear its killing me ! sleepless nights.. for the past 2-3 weeks.. reason being I was there to take care of someone which I realized was so dear to me so quickly. It was just a crazy month for me.. praying till I fell asleep many a times.. I think I have made a big mistake by falling too quickly AGAIN! Damm ! it sux big time.. somehow everyone needs a someone.. its just normal I guess.. I shouldn’t be trying too hard dang~. Let go gab let go.. She doesn’t even reveal her feelings I dun even know how to react and I dun even know where I stand ! But wat I know is that someone does hold a great importance in her life and ofcos its not me ~ So here I am letting go. Since she is already recovered well and can more or less take care of herself.. there is not much need for me to take care of her anymore.. my job is more or less done hmm.. I take my leave… Thanks babe I din regret doing wat I did one bit, its my utmost pleasure. I would do it all over again given another chance.. I hope I dun have to that is.. ride safe babe.

Have to get my biz on track.. others can wait.. just have been dragging my biz stuff for too long. Its just not right.. my love stuff have got to be put on hold.. without doubts… since its going no where..

Like a lot of my posts. My thoughts or writing is all over.. w/o a proper theme nor anything.. its just damm random ! one min talking about my dog and the other about something else..

I was on the way to dap’s house and guess wat.. I hit a bird ! a flying bird ! it came flying towards me.. and hit the jaw of my FF helmet. And den onto my shoulder. Wat are the chances of it happening man ! It’s the bird’s lucky day.. I was going at only 60-70km/h .. else it would be gone ! and my sweater as well.. more birds more luck :P

Signing off
Gab

apologies

2007-06-05T01:23:00.000+08:00

I have been really busy lately.. due to some personal reason, i havent got enough time to blog...

Firstly, I've already send a mail up to the HR with a request for a pay increment.. due to the stand-by requirement and stuff.. my contract doesnt have enough benefits... not talking about the year end bonus where people can buy nice stuff for the new year or Xmas stuff.. i have none ! damm it.. hmm.. but as a first job i would treat it as a learning curve by which its been a tough climb.. when i realised that i was abit "cheated" in a way.. i was promised OT pay of 1.5.. the standard rate and when i went there.. its just time off.. damm ! useless time off man.. money talks..

Secondly, i have been neglecting my biz start up.. but yes i am very determined to get back on track and probably launch on my birthday :) alot of work to do.. and i am doing it alone.. its a tiring job when i have a 8-5 job and after work its like alot of places are closed after work.. etc... but wat the hell.. having a partner is quite out of the picture cos to prevent conflicts due to $$$ matters... i think its better to do it alone.. if the capital is within the budget i set aside..

Thirdly, my dumb love life.. to be honest i have none to begin with lolz.. always falling for the wrong gals and such.. its seems destined that i will be single.. due to the nature of my job and my biz.. i just cannot afford the luxury of time and money to be attached.. somehow everyone needs a someone to be there. and i have none which is kinda tragic cos hmm.. its just sad lah...
words cant explain how i feel actually.. maybe i could.. but i would choose not to... cos like i blogged before.. your real feelings can never be revealed online.. it just makes alot of things more complicated than they already are..

signing off
gab

Armpit Hair..........

2007-05-19T11:10:00.000+08:00

Whart a random and dumb title to a post which i am gg to talk about...

Firstly, why do humans have bushy hair at that specific places? let me go about the reason which i feel why humans are born with bushy hair at such random places of our bodies... u dun see a bunch of curly wirly hair growing right smack of your elbow do u?

Its an unspoken rule.. where guys are allowed to have armpit hair and gals are not... why so?

Guys are supposed to be macho.. and having hair, used to be macho in the olden era where men are perceived as being the "MAN" and plucking of eye brows are no-no... where having small short 1mm stubs sticking all over the face is seen as manly and such..

Now ! its different.. guy who have their eye brows being like singapore malaysia( joined together) is crazy ! common.. go get that centre part shaved or something.. the main reasons for eye brows are used for expression... to simple that down.. u cannot tell if a person is angry or happy if he/she doesnt have an eye brow.. so its something which really means alot.. its a thin line which makes u either fierce or really nice..

yes first impression does matter ! so gals or guys.. please go do something with them.. its not "GAY" to wanna look presentable and approachable.. long gone are the days where men use cheap body soap to wash their face.. kose black mask and a jap "paste on" black head remover is good haha.. but i admit i am lazy to use that black head thingy.. its hidden somewhere in my pile of junk.. lolz..

dammit ! supposed to be talking about armpit hair.. lolz..

why females are never allowed to keep armpit hair !

the reason is simple.. cos guys dun like them, thats all !

why guys dont like them.... its has got to do which a little psycology ofcos... men are creature who are born competitive.. they want the youngest and hottest ladies... the most expensive watch... the fastest car... the biggest house.. etc..

so young gals are supposed to be a gal yet to reach puberty.... which equals to being hairless.. and to men thats something which is desired ! to have the young hairless gal... guys who thinks its sick to have intercourse with a young gal is bullshit.. they just do not understand themselves well enough.. or rather... men to be exact.. just be honest.. who likes to bed a hairful women.. which consist of hair on the nipples, armpits, down south, legs..

damm! i am straying from the topic man ! ahha.. but just a little insight to the hairy problem lolz..

so why armpits.. cos its easily visible to the opp sex.. thats why its a MUST to be gone.. else it would be assumed that the rest of the body is nowhere near that image of that young gal.. yes i am serious ! i am not a pedophile ofcos ! i prefer more mature ladies.. reason being.. the older the women.. the more she has to take good care to maintain that "young school gal" image when naked.. no clothes and dress sense has nothing to do with being a male or women.. cos in the end.. it would be a naked and free for all to see kinda affair..

so older women making that effort to look young is something which i think is good.. infact more attractive den being young and looking young.. being old and looking young but yet having signs that she is well aged to perfection is totally mind boggling :)

For men now !

why its no longer okie to be bushy like osama bin laden all over? gals hate hair.. esp when giving a BJ... trust me ! i know gals alot more than what u think.. but its just common sense for this case i feel.. who the hell in this world likes to plunge their faces on a bunch of curly and coarse hair which doesnt seem to be in a place where the sun does shine..

puffy un-tamed hair is no longer the "IN" like the powerpuff gals.. its dead ! go trim your south marina if yor do respect your partner... it does make your dick look longer(thats the plus point) and the gal would prefer it.. giving u a better BJ ofcos.. you dun have to be the smooth and all shaven runway.. a little green pasture is alright.. trimming with a small pair of sissors is good for a start..

gals if ur reading this and agree.. put a small * in your tag :) soon u will have less bushy guys around.. and on the long run.. it will benefit u :)

dun give me that innocent "i havent done that before loh" kind look ! haha..

ok thats it for a long post just on armpits.. i shall end here..

yawns. its a cool and nice sat moring.. last night perling makan was good :) except for the rain.. damm cold and wet ! the road is slippery when wet.. so fellow bikers.. take care.. some gals are slippery when wet too ;)

signing off,
gab

why blog?

2007-05-02T00:59:00.000+08:00

i dun think blogging is actually a venue when u can really voice out your real feelings or emotions....

Friends you know judge u, whether u like it ornot.... its a known fact.. you cant really reveal ur feelings towards a gal here.. because its very possible she would be reading it.. and its like.. wtf... its bad when u have feelings for 2 gals...

YES people are being branded "flirts" for having feelings for 2 or more people.. but i think its perfectly normal... everyone feels that way ! and yes YOU! reading this right now... i am so damm sure u felt that way at least once in your life before.. just that most people do not admit for the fear of being carrying the label "flirt"

you cant even blog saying.. hey i have been fantasizing about your gf.. while she wore that low cut tube during clubbing.. or over that dinner.. or that day at the beach.. when she ran in her bikini.. cos u will most prob ruin the friendship.. but guys please dun crap saying NO! i never once fantasize about ur friend's hot gf or his mum for rare cases.. and gals ooh please dun say that u never did took an extra look at your best friend's cute bf.. with a nice bod.. drooling over his extra sized up bulge..

blogs are mere an attention seeker place where humans can find solace in this all so superficial world.. where friends are a mere place humans feel "accepted" and "love" in... its wonderful to have friends.. i dont deny that fact.. but think of the bigger picture.. why do u think countries bother to have good r/s with other countries.. cos they are able to benefit from one another's plus factor.. for eg.. oil, water....

back to friendship.. they do drift apart at times.. most of the time is because of monetary reason.. i have recently just felt it.. do not really wish to go into tiny details though.. closer friends will know about it.. its over a mere $60 ! and over 10 years of friendship being questioned over $60 !! that figure is sheer insult to the price tag i place on over 10 years of friendship.. if its over 20-30k den maybe we are talking but come on ! $60, its a joke !

well attached below is a pic of a bike trip i organised to msia... 19 bikes in total.. 21 peeps :)

the bikes who turned up

my pimp ride !

smoking

2007-04-22T19:18:00.000+08:00

I am proud to announce that i have officially quit smoking !

Since secondary 1 i picked up this fucked up habit of mine.. smoking.. we went to the railway track behind my school... squeezing thru a small hole in the fence out of the school.. as well as up to the stage changing room.. to smoke..

i remember the price of fags costs a mere $1.80 for a pack of 10s its either $1.80 or $2.10.. and then it started to rise to about $11.00 for a pack of 20s now..

i feel that the banning of the 10 stick per pack is a dumb idea ! it just makes people smoke more.. cos smokers would know.. fags will "lao hong" means lose the flavour after about 3 days being open.. so when i started.. we finished 10 sticks in 3 days.. then we had to finish 20 sticks in 3 days ! to prevent it from losing its taste.. so i am so damm sure it made smokers heavier smokers !

well to be honest i dun really feel great quitting smoking.. cos the fag has always been a good buddy of mine..

during my mountain climbing... reaching the peak, after the hard trek up.. nothing beats a ciggs with good friends.. over a cold bottle of sprite or something..

during BMT.. after a long and wet day.. being soaked and having road march.. smoking just before bed time...

during my back packing trip alone in the phillippines.. staring into the sunset... or just lazing by the beach.. i was so lonely to be honest.. it was there.. its hard to explain to other who think.. common! its just a cigg ! hmm.. it has already became a buddy of mine after 11 years of smoking..

wat made me quit?
i dunno man ! its just a thought that all smokers had... to quit smoking.. so i was thinking.. why am i such a slave to something that harms u.. it just didnt make sense ! am i too weak to quit??

so i pushed myself to quit.. ofcos it was damm fucking fucking tough !
how i did it..
1) hang out with smokers less..
2) STOP buying ciggs
3) be strong.. mentally
4) replace ciggs with food-yes i know nothing beats a stick after a good meal !
5) replace ciggs with sweets..

okie thats about it..
well i did suffer from horrible stuff after quitting..

1) my nose bleed for about 2 weeks.. almost every day
2) my coughed blood & black lumps of i think tar.. for about 2 weeks as well
3) my mouth had ulcers which just wun go away..
4) short tempered
5) ate ALOT ! because food starts to taste better once u quit
6) felt damm lonely and sad.. almost like depression mode or something
7) i ate even more.. i am too scared to even weigh myself now ! haha..
8) i felt very breathless when the lift at my work place broke down.. 3 stories only !
9) very very restless, din feel like doing anything..
10) running nose.. thats the most common problem..

but yes now i am smoke free and stuff. i feel happy.. ofcos temptation is always there.. ! but i told myself.. be mentally strong gab !

i had to put my biz plans on hold due to lack in funds as well as din feel like doing anything due to the quitting stage...

so now i am back for more !
hope to launch in june/july..

maybe on my birthday would be cool as well.. :)

signing off
gab

been moons since i blogged !

2007-04-17T05:43:00.000+08:00

well now i am back for awhile i guess..

after anita asked why i havent been blogging lolz..
so yeah..

well nothing intresting had happend for the past few months i guess..
no gf, no sex(CAN U BELIEVE THAT!?i swear its true), nothing...

for those who are still intrested in this blog which was "dead" for so long..

i've switch careers from being a photographer and film grip to something more stable and pays me on time..
back to my technical roots.. i am currently a technician at singapore changi airport.. doing maintenace of X-ray machines and walk-thru detectors.

i think finally i've began to see gals in a different light.. which is ofcos in a very good way !

used to view gals as sex objects and stuff.. but after hanging out with an older gal.... i felt totally different.. the time spent with her was so pure and nice.. i did not even have "immoral" thots about her... i was thinking to myself.. gosh am i fucking turning gay or something.. then something struck me.. perhaps she is the one that i've always been looking for.. something beyond appearance and sexual desires .

Beyond the age barrier. But it seems so near yet so far... gals are generally early bloomers in terms of puberty or in careers.. due to the 2years lag that guys suffer from which is called NS !
so its like i am behind her in the career aspect for about 5 years or more !

Its a gals thing that even thou she likes a younger guy, he has to be at least stable and has a good career and stuff.. i fully understand that fact.. and if a female friend chose to be with a poor guy who has no career and in debts.. i would certainly tell her to forget it.. it wun last so dun waste ur efforts... but such money digging guys are pretty smart as well.. they would either
1) make the gal preggy
2) threaten to commit suicide
3) be like a dog to her. since he doesnt have any thing !

i am obviously not that money digging dog.. else i wouldnt have left my ex gf who drives a vw beetle, stays in a house which cost perhaps a million or so.. has a dad who drives a beemer 5series.. some friends say why i am so dumb to let go of such a good "catch" when i could have a comfortable life in the future..

being a true believer in love just recently ! (after about 10+years of dating experience) i honestly believe its more than just money or career that makes or breaks a r/s... not saying money is not important ofcos.. i do love money to bits :) who doesnt?

but a few questions gals shld ask themselves b4 jumping into a r/s

1) are u able to enjoy doing things together? for eg. travel, sports, bungee jumping etc

2) will u get bored of the guy in time to come? if he does nothing on weekend, watching TV and playing chinese chess with his pet tortise or something

3) does he do more than wat money can buy for u? not a 100rose bouquet but a card made with small swarovki crystals he glued on spelling your name.. getting his fingers super glued together just to complete that card

4) does he spend money un-wisely ( theres a saying, its not how much u earn, its how much u save) my bet is that if he is a mahjong addict wearing red underwear for luck during his get-rich programme every alternate day the r/s will get no where.. horse racing on sat and sundays is part of that get-rich scheme lolz.

5) the most important i feel ! FAMILY.. does his family like u? do u like his family?? parent will get old and sick someday.. it would be a pain to care for someone u hate.. unless u plan to buy heavy insurance for his mum and force a heart attack by hiding in the dark and give your mother-in-law a run for her money by jumping and screaming madly in the middle of the night.

6) is he hard working? chances are if he is lazy to do the chores.. your the one who will be doing it.. and also chances are if he aint hardworking, he would be lazy to please u on the bed.. so u will be left half high and dry.. do u like ur gin extra dry? or rather it smooth and sliding down that tunnel like a mango tango magarita?

GOSH i sound like aunt annie !

ciaos! leave a tag or something if u enjoyed this post :)
i might start blogging more if respond is good lolz..

gab

she is just so

2006-11-07T00:19:00.000+08:00

predictable.

i had my fair share of fun and yeah, i dun think i am losing much actually..

she will just go crawling back to matt like a dog after we ended.. i am so damm sure i would even bet my dog on it !

well.. look at her metality it assured me that its a great choice that i made.. that is to end this crap...

now i shall yeah go travel. perhaps come home with a viet bride or something ! haha..

china might be out of the picture due to the high cost :(

but yeah hope to go before the 20th of this month and den fly to malaysia on the 7th or 8th to meet martin and gang at genting, but hrmphs.. so little days in viet.. abit hrmphs.. sian man..

and yeah i might continue to work for lance after coming back from my short trip..

today did a gallery photoshoot. damm boring lah.. shoot NAFA gallery paintings.. but yeah i think i did a good job.. not so nervous this time... and yeah i am getting better.. its my first time using a medium format cam and the peeps were like so impressed lah..

lolz..

so yuppers it has been a great day

finally

2006-10-25T21:19:00.000+08:00

i passed my bike and yeah.. damm happy la !

but as well as sad.. cos yeah how could some one claim she loves me but yet be with another guy??

i think its just cheap words.. abt love and stuff.. way over used
she said she wun choose both but once i was gone.. she got together wif him..

haha complete flop man..

oh well..
fuck it man

i have my bike all ready and stuff.. just left about 1 full day of spraying & fixing back the parts.. and get the insurance and road tax done..

and i am going to be declared a bankrupt !
haha
seriously loh

$120 road tax
$300 insurance

my $500/mth pay is gone..

minus the bus fair and food !
damm i will just die lah

not like anyone cares anymore..
sigh

i think u will be better off

2006-10-23T03:13:00.000+08:00

yeah i think it would be better for u if we just part.

why i am being a jerk as usual..

so u would hate me and get back to ur life faster..

theres no point in holding u back if your heart is elsewhere..

so i chose to let go..

i am so tired yet i cant sleep at 3 am.

i dunno man

but yeah i should get on wif my life as usual..

well i am sure its over

2006-10-22T15:25:00.000+08:00

thats the last straw..

she is just too much i guess..

claims to love only me, yet go to sentosa wif another guy and clubbing with him.. and yeah call me old-fashioned but nah friends DO NOT kiss the opp sex in my dictionary...

i might be a flirt but hell if u do know my friends.. they know i did change alot after being with her, i quitted smoking for about 2months(the duration we were together b4 the on-off break-ups) so yeah it like i have been smoking for like i think 10 years dude... trust me its not easy !
and yeah i gave up many of my female friends and stuff.. i kinda think its not worth it man.. while she is like sleeping & flirting around.. FUCK !

hrmphs time to let go i guess... its just fucking not worth anything more.. i should just get on with my life and yeah perhaps settle down.

well so yeah its all nothing much dirt cheap words.. nah i wun bother to believe wateva she is gg to say cos i think this is it !

so now i declare i am single and ready to mingle ! woo~
a couple of gals i am considering at the moment

1) vivian
2) wei qi
3) ai mei
4) joyce

yeah not ranked in any particular order..

i shall just fuck the past man.. although its kinda sad after putting so much commitment & time & money & love & emotions & effort, i really think shes not worth it.. with her kiddo mentality and living in her "dream world" where everything is like in fairy tales.. when its not possible ! gosh.. really have the metality of a kid man.. perhaps when she is more matured in her thinking, we will see how it goes. but yeah she is a mere 20 and i am her 1st real bf actually.. so yeah screw it man...

fuck the world !

in a fix

2006-10-19T01:18:00.000+08:00

should i continue wif my job as my paying is going to be $1K from $500..
or should i go travel and spend all my years of savings?

well seems like she already happy flirting wif that fucker terence or wateva his name.. mutha farker.. so yeah let her childish mind do wat she wants..

hate such in-direct gals man.. childish actions.. really..

well did i regret breaking up wif her? yes and no..

lets start wif why yes..

1) my parents love her
2) she is always there when i needed someone
3) she is actually a very nice gf
4) she is willing to sacrifice alot of stuff for me
5) i miss the times we flew kite both at marina and upper pierce
6) she gives me sweet nice stuff like letters, medicine, food !
7) my cousins and relative love her
8) she is just so willing to do small stuff which drives me gaga~
9) she took damm good care of me when i was really sick
10) sushi is crazy over her

now why no....
1) her mum hates me, perhaps its the typical cantonese thinking(no offence other cantonese) but yeah i dun come from a rich family. so in a way her mum feels i am not "good" enough for her in $$$ wise
2) she gives empty promises
3) she have really childish mentality
4) she sat someone's bike. when the guy should be me ! thats the last straw
5) she has been giving her msn and hp numbers out to guys online while we were together
6) her good friend thinks i suk. cos the good friend is my ex-gf. well~
7) she has tons of pride... will never apologise nor give in
8) she keeps alot of secrets to herself, then wats the point of being together !

well thats abt it..

well i am tired.. 1 whole week of shoot. full day shoots !
fuck lah. damm tired.

dawg!

2006-03-04T01:19:00.000+08:00

today was a mind blowing experience.. haha.. cos i dine at a pretty steep restaurant.. gosh.. its like a plate of meat stuff cost $40+
wow thats like very very steep for me.. escargot was good too !
around $12 for 6 snails.. lol.. pulau sudong have tons.. i can sell dem and be a millionaire over night ! haha

but if ur wondering why i am dining as such a posh french place..
cos i wasnt paying.. lolz.. it was a treat frm CHARISSA! yeah.. thanks man ! its one of the more posh places i have eaten in my life lolz.. wat a loser me..

anyway after dinner(which i felt kinda uncomfortable at) we headed to lower pierce for stroll and chat.. yeah.. den while going back to the car park.. guess wat !
i saw a dog.. white, i assume its a maltese/poodle mixed.. damm cute.. followed me.. perhaps cos of sushi's doggie smell.. yeah and even wanted to go into my car.. gosh.. damm tame and cute.. so i went to the nearest petrol kiosk and got some bread and a bottle of water.. yeah den went back to feed him.. but sigh he din touch the food.. nor water.. just followed me and walking aimlessly.. i tried calling him, mickey, sushi, boy boy, doggie... but seems like those arent his name lolz.. dang~

i think the owner is fucked up ! its like damm nice i swear ! if my house doesnt have a dog.. i would have brought him home and bathe him and everything.. but yeah so i left.. wif my heart still there.. i might be going back again some day to see if anyone did adopt him or something.. hmm.. hope he finds a nice home..

yup so yeah i am home.. after a great and expensive dinner.. and meeting that dog..

but through out the night.. i was like thinking abt her.. gosh i dunno wat happend man.. i think i've fallen for her dis time.. even when i am at work or something.. yeah.. anyway today work sux.. was in the sun from like 9am-1pm and 2pm till 4pm.. gosh i am baked !
yeah but hope how she feels abt me is the same.. yeah.. i highly doubt though..

might be cos i am always like out wif gurls and told her abt my past r/s.... so on the books its like kinda.. not a good start.. but fuck it man.. its like.. wats the point of having a great start but a sucky ending? nah i am the kinda guy whoose like i make it clear at the start and i am open abt my past... and yeah u decide if ya think its possible.. :) dawn.. damm ! i miss u tons babe....

hopefully the day that u come to realise dat its not all about the past. its abt the future.. yeah.. here i shall catch some winks..
kinda tired after a whole day of work..

splendid

2006-02-26T21:47:00.000+08:00

it has been quite long since i last bladed.. yeah so today i decided to ask anita.. and irene out for a blade at ecp.. and as usual anita changed the meeting time from 4 to 4-30 and in the end reached at like 5-40 or somethin gosh !
hey gurl u gotta learn how to be on time man ! haha..

yeah so in the mean time while waiting for her.. irene and myself headed to habourfront for some shopping.. as i wanted to a mini home theater system for my room.. so went to BIG.. and wtf? it was like super packed wif people.. gosh.. amazing i tell u.. soo packed that i walked awhile but people who knw me well knows that i dislike crowds.. perhaps i am anti social or something.. but ya i hate noise.. haha.. yups.. so we went shopping at the pet shop instead.. and den some esprit and female shops or something.. just to pass time.. haha

den alas ! anita the princess of jurong arrived.. so we headed down to ecp.. and as usual car park was such a chore.. so yeah managed to find a lot near big splash so we parked and bladed to the hawker.. where we had satay(the chicken was damm good), chix wings, etc.. was great..

haha den it was like anita wanted to learn how to turn.. so we headed somewhere less crowded and yeah she is doing quite well.. and irene was great too.. she is good looking actually.. haha.. but too bad she is like 27 and has a bf whom she has been wif for like 10years.. kinda cool.... din knw she stayed that near my place man.. great meeting her for the first time anyway.. perhaps could go blading agian..

tada! and i sent anita to the tiong bahru mrt and headed home.. and yeah bought some black spray to touch up my car lol.. looks great in the night.. hopefully as good in the day :)

yeah i still love my car.. even though she is like crippled and hot(too hot at times) wif the air-con spoilt :P.. but i do believe love is something so nice.. no matter wat happens.. u should stick to himhe brought u to.. nor how nice his car is.. its all a matter of.. if ur down and crippled.. would he be the one to stick by ur side? helping u and being there.. yeah dats love.. not how many flower he got u on valentines or how posh the place wif u.. thru ur life journey.. i think i will do the same thing i did for my car.. even though she is damaged.. i still do wash her.. i touched up the ugly spots.. and started to put things back into my car... although i removed everything after the crash.. cos i was pissed.. somehow.. but den after i kinda cooled down.. i began to realise how precious and how much it has done for me.. and now our re-newed love is back ! and i am happy:)

so if ur a gal and wants a guy who would did wat i did... send in ur applications to gabriel06@hotmail.com
haha.. :)
but to dawn. yeah.. all i ask is for that chance.. to be that guy to hold u when ur down and ugly, when most guys would just leave u.. i would be there still..
will u?

great day

2006-02-25T03:03:00.000+08:00

i think its an awesome day..

cos i rushed home after work.. and went to meet joyce at PS.. den had dinner at some sushi place.. ate till like wow~ full ! haha
yuppers.. den we headed for some shopping.. i wanted to look for a DVD mini home theater system..

so yeah.. walked around.. den headed for my fave vietniam "special coffee", but was kinda dissapointed.. it tastes 10 times better in viet !! god.. hrmphs.. but theres like a fashion show. boy are the peeps hot !!!
and yup.. met cheryl(from church) at some shoe shop. she still does look great..
so chatted a little wif her.. and blah blah.. kinda uncomfortable. i was sitting facing her.. haha cos joyce was like busy choosing her shoes.. while the old man me.. had to rest my tired feets.. frm work today :(

yeah den went to catch final destination 3.. hrmph i still prefer saw 2 actually...
a little lousy actually.. the plot.. but the killing parts are pretty cool !

after which we headed down to mustafa.. since she havent been there b4.. as she said it was full of indians and was kinda bothered wif that fact.. but i insisted haha.. so yeah we headed down and it was sooo much fun.. hahah from trying the toys to looking at hi-fi and home theater systems.. and shopping for clothes.. testing the perfumes.. etc..
haaa.

she was addicted to dat place man...
we came across something damm damm cool !
a massage pad which u can hook up to ur car seat.. and boy it rox !! haha but it costs something like $240. hrmphs.. dats the put off part.. yeah.. but due to our ageing bodies.. haha our feet hurts and back hurts. basically everywhere was like numb.. haha..

so i sent her home.. and yeah now i am home.. typing dis.. lolz.. it was a great day for me...

but for dawn.. i guess its sad.. she failed her TP today.. driving in oop direction.. hrmphs.. bad mistake i guess.. but hrmphs.. dun worry.. not many people pass it the first time round.. so yeah. all the best the next time..

yeah and now its bed time.. and tml work starts at 8am.. gotta wake up at 7am and now its like 315haha.. gosh.. k nitez

patience

2006-02-19T03:39:00.000+08:00

i think my patience has paid off.. patience of not rushing into relationships like i used to do all the time..

i met this gal online and yeah chatting was her is like great.. or rather.. perfect..
y i think she is great
1) she speaks english
2) she doesnt like tao gays in her noodles (just like me)
3) she likes photography
4) she is arty-farty
5) she is pretty
6) she is really pretty
7) she looks better in real life
8) she is not that tall..a tad taller den me i guess..
9) she has a great smile
10) the feeling of comfort and ease when chatting wif her..
11) i dun feel stress nor un-comfortable chatting wif her( i feel dat way when the gal is very pretty)
12) i miss her all the time( i dunno y)
13) she flirts a little and thats driving me gaga
14) she likes dogs.. so do i..
15) she stays near ecp.. i love that place..
16) its just her ! i like her...

for once.. my patience and my good-doings paid off :)
but i hope the feeling is reciprocal and yeah.. hope all goes well.. though we barely knwn each other but yeah.. i am keeping my fingers crossed.. and yeah meeting her on monday.. and i cant wait.. its like giving a young kid his favourite ice-cream and placing it right in front of him but he cant eat yet.. he has to wait.. that kinda feeling gosh its killing me !!!

i am tired of failed relationships and this gal is kinda fast, fast as in me getting to her and stuff.. but hrmphs.. screw dat.. if the feeling is right.. y bother right??
so wat if u knw that guy for 5years.. it doesnt garantee a happy ending nor happiness when being together.. and so wat if u knw that guy for a week..
theres always a gamble.. i have lost in my gambles for all the past relationships.. dis is the time i am gg to win i hope.. i am starved for a sucessful relationship.
i want it so bad man.so bad it hurts..

yeah and i am gg to leech her foto and publish her pic here.. haha yeah~
dats her ! the one.. i hope she doesnt mind.. if she does ermm.. tell me and i will remove it glady..

luck

2006-02-14T17:41:00.000+08:00

luck hasnt been great on me man.. :(
during cny lost like $100+ to gambling.. haha
and even during mahjong $0.10 $0.20 i lost like $17..
and even billards.. $0.50 $1.00 i lost like $18..
hahah
this year just sux !!!!!
i thought i have been doing good deeds like giving apples and oranges to the old folk's home near my house it will be good.. but hell no ! hahah.. guess i shall stick back to being a jerk.. being a good guy is tough man.. its soo damm tiring..

its valentine's day and i am date-less.. could it be retribution?? hrmphs.. i really ponder man.. it has been like say 8 years and this is the first i am w/o a date.. feels like weird.. but i guess its time for me to get serious wif the next gf i am gg to be wif.. i am soo fucking afriad of r/s honestly.. i might see tough and a flirt on the outside.. this is so not me.. cos its just an exterior shield to prevent the soft tofu heart i have inside from being injured and hurt.. i dun dare to put everything into a r/s.. for fear it fails.. i'll be shattered.. gosh..

now i am in a fix.. hrmphs.. there dat gurl who have been on my mind for like ages !!! since pri 6 ! man can u just imagine.. but i dun dare make a move on her.. cos her dad's a pastor.. and its like intimidating.. i dunno y.. dun ask me.. lolz.. hmm.. but yah.. i havent really straighten out my thought yet.. so yeah
i might be studying marketting soon.. after i ord.. perhaps in SIM.. hmm.. yeah..

anyway thats all for today

poet in me

2006-02-08T10:59:00.000+08:00

this was written like i think a few years back for a gal who did not even get to see wat i have wrote.. cos she was attached soon after we broke off.. and i din wanna show her the poetry cos i din wanna affect her r/s wif her new bf in anyway.. so in silence, i penned down my dissapointment, fear, pain everything... hope u guys enjoy.dis is one of the many i've written..

title: foot prints ( ah jas likes dis )

life used to be
a single footprint
left behind on the sand
till u came along
it made them two
when a wave rushes to shore
it washes all our prints away
and we shall not look back
but towards the furture
you by my side
together hand in hand
taking us to a place
where no waves could ever wash them away
and even if it did
the prints which u left in my heart never will fade away

short & sweet yeah

anyway V-day seems pretty gloomy for me i guess.. i am too tired to buy flower, arrange a nice dinner etc.. i seriously dunno wat i'm gg to do.. i need to be in camp by 10pm.. and please tell me.. where can i go?? sigh sigh sigh.. and i dun even knw who to date.. *shrugs* i am like feeling "asdlighyugre bayusgfygfhew" inside.. i dun knw who i really like.. i seem to be liking soo many gals gosh its driving me goo goo~
but there are a couple of gals who still owns a place in my heart.. in simple.. a soft spot which i have for them :)
names
are............................................................................................................
nahz. ::)
tell ya in person.. so do date me out for coffee.. i could bitch wif u gurls.. am i turning gay.. shrugs.. its scarry.. i've never been single for sooo long ! am i normal? haha

accident

2006-01-28T05:38:00.000+08:00

well i just got home after getting involved in an accident.. well..
i was going straight and that car on the oop lane wanted to turn right.. it was amber so i picked up speed a little.. then he turned.. so i swerve to avoid his car.. but it was too late.. i hit his car..
now my right headlights and bonnet is like crumpled.. sigh....
wat a damm fucked up start to the CNY.. which is tml !!!!
damm it man..
the impact was so great that my specs flew out.. and all the cushions and my air purifier toppled and water was all over... now i have cleared the car.. and see how it goes.. most prob going to scrap the car man.. sigh..

this car really have sooooo much value.. in my heart.. it was so pain.. i was stunned for like 30secs.. a rush of feelings.... the great times i had in the car.....

and the gals as well.. wat else could i be blogging about.. besides girls..
i've fetched soo many of my exs and its like so much feelings and emotions are being attached to the car..

well people who sat in my car b4 knw i am not exactly a very safe driver.. but i swear this time it was not my fault.. i had the right of way ! but to be fair to the other party.. i was not exactly travelling slow either.. so yeah.. well shit does happen.. and now its like.. i think i'll just have to get used to taking public transport agian.. after like 2 years.. hrmphs... its going to be tough ofcos.. but well.. wat to do..

sigh.. its just a very bad day..... but now after sitting in my room.. and kinda settle down a little.. i guess.. i will appreciate life more in the future.. appreciate my father for being there at like 4am.. cos even at 4 am.. he calmly told me wat to do.. he did not scold me for speeding or anything.. thats how understanding my father is.. and i thank god that he has blessed me wif such great family.... now i feel like crying man.. not cos of the car.. cos of the feeling of love i felt.. which i never really felt frm my family b4.... when i was younger.. perhaps cos i got scolded often for not being the really good in studies kid.. and getting into trouble...

so to those ah bengs, think agian.. in trouble, friends might or might not be there.. but no matter wat.. ur family is the one which will always be there for u.. whether ur in the right or wrong.. they will stand up for u ! thats for sure !

gosh.. its amazing man.. that the accident happend when my parents are in singapore.. they could help me settle the problem and stuff.. thank god.. else i will be lost like a 3 yr old kid in a hyper mart.... its not a great CNY i guess.. :( but ya..

i promise to drive carefully from today.. i wil not exceed 100km/h and will check my blind spots.. call me a sissy driver for all u want.. but life is worth more than the trill of speed...

today also made somethings clear to me.. i think she is the one for me.. haha there i go again abt gals.. but yeah.. its like a hard knock that knock me to my senses.. i wanna treasure her... its okie if we take the bus together or anything.... although there are many nice places which i cant bring her to.. but till my career is more stable and stuff.. i will get my own car.. so if ur the gal and ur reading this.. i hope u could give me that chance to work together and build our future together..

signing off,
a changed gab.

Amazing

2006-01-17T01:27:00.000+08:00

i did not see her for the past close to 10 years.. she has indeed transformed into a fine gurl indeed..

yeah and i dreamt of her... dun ask my why.. cos its not explainable.. yeah the dream was something like that...

we went out for dinner or something.. den i sent her to her door step.. we kissed.. its not those kinda horny and wanna lead onto something else kinda kiss.. just a really simple and pure one.. den somehow i was in her house.. and i met her dad.. he was damm cool.. think we shared the same hobbie or something.. so we hit off straight away.... yeah.. he kinda likes me and yada yada.. i was so excited to meet her parents and glad how her fam accepted me.. and ya thats about all..

gosh.. its amazing man.. been ages since i last had a sweet and simple dream.. mostly nightmares or wet ones.. lolz.. ;)

we din really talked much before.. more of a hi bye kinda friend.. but yeah.. hope this dream will come true.. cos personally i believe family is a great and important factor when dating a gurl.. so i love to intro my GFs to my parents and uncles aunties and cousins etc.. its like seeing how she fit into my family.. not just myself.. thats the reason y my uncles and aunties are complaining abt me changing gfs and blah blah.... so far i think i have only felt at ease and comfortable with one of my ex GF's family, her sis and uncle and auntie rox ! though i havent met her parents... lolz. the rest of the ex Gfs are ermm.. just so-so..

its no surprise.. that she is the one which i really love the most.. not rachel.. its mei~
yeah..

haha damm.. my posts are all abt gurls and gurls and cars..hrmphs.

let me blog something abt my guy friends.. many of which are single.. so if theres any desperate houswives or something yeah drop me a mail..
mainly they are nice people.. but i guess its just their approach towars love is a little different from mine..

i am more of that auntie kinda guy who trieds the bah kwa samples before deciding to buy, afterall its free :)

they are more of finding the right stall of bah kwa and just buying it..

no particular kind is better or anything i feel.. its just a different approach i guess.

anyway now most of my soccer kakiz have ORD so soccer is becoming like 2times a week.. which is great.. haha love the talk cock time.. smoking breaks... nice goals.. stupid mistakes..
"superior turn" (my trademark).......... yeah..

below are my soccer peeps.
some of which are gone.. due to ermm.. msg me if u wanna knw more

new year

2006-01-03T14:05:00.000+08:00

it wasnt that great.. my car bumper got hit in a hit and run.. but aint that bad.. just hope it wun fall off while driving.. yeah.. and cos i aint willing to spend like 200+ on the repairs.. rather use it to pay for a month of petrol :) makes more sense i guess
now i finally feel the pain of being hit.. even though its not a sparkling and new car but yet i feel kinda attached to it already.. it has been thru many places and fetched many people and brought me to place unforgetable.. ofcos some intimate moments ;)

anyway now i am thinking of which car to get..
1) vintage mini

2) vintage MG

3) musso sport

4) unknown modded pick-up

5) opel combo

fever

2005-12-19T21:09:00.000+08:00

damm it.. i hate it to the core..
i've been on one week's MC and its like my whole body is all screwed.. with the medication and stuff.
the fever was caused by my enlarged tonsils.. yup.. some kinda infection.. and i spent like $50 on the doctor's visit.. sigh.. bad bad..

so well today was the first day back to work.. well it was actually last night.. had to stay in the previous night.. kinda sucky.. cos i din sleep well on the sofa.. and had a bad neck ache when i woke up at like 430am this morning..then proceed to prata breakfast wif anthony and ah seng..
cos anthony's car couldnt start.. so i fetched him down to pasir panjang jetty..
and well its a great day actually cos sudong ended at 1pm.. from the usual 11pm.. haha IMAGINE the joy and happiness? but wasnt feeling too well.. sigh..
okie heres a short blog....

hey there mr postman

2005-12-04T03:29:00.000+08:00

hey mr or ms disgraced TAS shit..

this post is dedicated to u....

hope u enjoy reading
and i just love it when a person fail to win a quarrel or a debate and end up saying wateva.. haha its like wat ur trying to prove?? u have got the last say?? wow! big fat hairy deal.. so if ur speechless its okie.. just admit it.. no one will laugh..or at least i swear i wun.. deal?

below are the possible reasons why ur soo anal abt me getting the gals.

if ur a guy,
- ur jealous that i have got more ex gal friends den perhaps all ur guy/gay friends
- no gal wld like a pussy-like kinda guy having no guts to even leave a name
- ur a real loser, y?, cos y are u still reading if u claim i am harm causing agent in ALL the gurls
- u dislike me.. well i dun need love frm guys.. i am straight and i mean it
- did i snatched a gal whoom u like and ur really sore, cos u aint able to even come close
- i hurt a gurl who u really care and love and blah blah blah.. well i like it, wat can u do abt it?
- ur some ugly guy whoose face looks kinda like my anal hole. u cant get the gals do u?
- gals dun love me or fall for me cos i drive or i am rich.. cos i aint rich.. and the car aint mine
- gals love me cos i am caring, i give surprises. i am more exciting then sitting at the com giving some smart ass comments and getting all anal abt it lolz..
- u should apologise.. and beg me.. perhaps i will pass some skill and knowledge to ya..
- i might even lend u a couple of grands to go do something abt ur loser face..

if ur a gurl,
- i din pick u among many, well cant help if u aint charming.. try praying to some greek goddness
or something. it might help. really
- ur paranoid cos i ditched u b4 and u kinda love spreading bad stuff abt me behind my back, well well. perhaps ur method aint working.. that gurls are still flowing in.
- i hurt ur good pal.. and u being the almighty supreme godness of loyalty to friends. haha.. needa get back at me. it aint working actually.. try praying to some japanese wasabi warrior or something
- u dun really understand me well.. thats y u never fall for me.. i am really nice.. if u din realised long ago
- u aint got a chance to come close to knwing me. i have too many gurls and u aint good enough?
- u love TAS soo much that u needa wear a cape and protect all the wonderful gurls frm there..
kinda having doubts. are u that powerful?
- u needa form a group called.. anti-gabriel movement or something? u really think u are mao
zhe dong? or hitler
- ur a god damm butch and ur upset i left none for u? well life is fair.. learn how to be competent.
if u really cant be a gurl and wanna join the guy's league.. dun whine.

ask u something.. if ur a gurl and u knw theres this particular guy named gabriel.. u dun really know him.. but yet u heard lots abt him b4.. his tough PTs... his sweet talking skills.... his attitude problem.. his arrogances... his flirtiness.. if theres such a word.

would u even give him a chance to get a step closer to u? the answer is no..
but ask urself agian..
how did he managed to get so many gurls?
he aint tall
he aint handsome
the answer is soo god damm simple..
i am a nice guy, thats y ~ no matter wat others say or talk abt me behind me its alrite.. i know many of my so called " buddies" talking bad abt me behind my back.. its alrite.. i really am fine wif it.. cos i dun need reputation nor anything else to get gurls, neither do i need ur pathetic help, u will need it more than me..
its simply based on ME and ME alone..
gurls who know me can easily tell u straight.. i am nice..
so wateve u tell nor say behind me.. wun hurt me nor anything..
it might lower my chances of getting the gurls..
but in the end i still score..
cos the gurls themselves are old enough to gauge and judge..they dun really need u to spoon feed them to wateve is right and wrong and to decide whether i am that so called.. fucked up and flirty gabriel that u guys mentioned..

so the bottom line is that.. get to know me b4 u even judge me.. u will never regret knowing a friend like me..

nothing can dampen my happy life. NOTHING! save it dude.. u cant even come close!

this pic is taken at sentosa.. hope u guys like it.. :)

its my life

2005-11-26T02:50:00.000+08:00

my life.. when i was a mere 1 month old.. my parents went overseas for honey moon and left me in the care of my baby sitter... i call her "tee tee" and " ah kay"
they have a son... which later part of my life.. adopted me as their god son.. haha.. yeah..
i was baby sitted till pri 6.. so i was kinda closer to them rather then my parents..
and then it was after PSLE.. so i was kinda old enough..

so i shifted back to stay with my parents.. but due to the different standards and different style of bringing up the child.. i was not used to it.. and therefore rebelled..
i have had a roller-coaster ride.. since the age of 13 which was sec 1...
starting.. i had a couple of close soccer friends.. then i started to mix wif bad company, smoked, skipped school and "left" my soccer friends..

then in sec 2..
something really bad happend..
i was under probation for i think a year..
almost got thrown into the boys home.. my parents were dissapointed and needless to say.
i went frm bad to worst..
but me being pretty clever.. haha.. passed my exams.. and went to sec 3.. still in the express stream.. yeah..

then it was sec 3 when i left the bad company and decided to change for the better..
so i mixed wif my soccer pals agian.. which was kinda fucked up i guess.. cos its like i left them.. then wanted to join them agian after i got into trouble and stuff...
but my bad behaviour in sec 3 caused me to have 2 strokes of the cane in the class..
i could still remember the faces of my friends.. a couple of gals almost cried.. cos being the nice and sweet guy i was.. haha.. not to boast.. but gals loved me...

yeah.. but i thank god.. in giving me a the BEST teacher in the world.. ms yeong.. she wrote me letters of encouragements.. talked to me like and adult.. cried with me.. constantly keeping a look out of my progress.. and needless to say.. that changed me..
i am becoming a better person.. i guess.. den after o'levels i scored something like 21 points for L1R4.. which aint really too amazing.. but still i managed to get a place in NP.. ece..

but due to the different style of teaching in poly.. i wasnt used to it.. and then i slacked.. skipped lectures.. and everything.. flunked my subjects.. etc.. cos i was playing counter-strike haha.. well.. my good poly pal gabriel was kicked out of the poly for failing too many subjs..
i studied in poly for 4 years.. damm.. it was not a waste of one year.. but more of at least i have a diploma.. something to comfort me at least..

poly was a blast.. after i got into the CCA.. the best thing that ever happend in my life..
The Adventure Seekers........ made friends.. many.. made love.. hahah that sounds kinda wrong.. but yes..

my ever long thirst for knowledge and challenges is just so great.. i wanna know everything..

looking back i was the luckiest guy EVER!
y?
PSLE-196- i opted for express and made it
sec2- i did not go to the boys home
sec4-made it into poly
poly- i managed to get a diploma after failing something like 10 over modules
after poly- got a car as a "reward"
NS- BMT was really nice.. except for the gal who left me during that time
- was posted to the air force
- i can book out everyday
- i dun have to chiong suah

i think my life has been really great for me.. but due to my nature..
i have got very short attention span...
i have got like TONS of hobbies !
-table tennis
-soccer
-badminton
-squash
-running
-gyming
-swimming
-fishing
-photography
-fishes
-hamsters
-dogs
-cats
-RC planes
-guitar
-back packing
-rock climbing
-trekking
-caneoing
-electronics stuff
-computers
-cars
-massage
-essential oils mixing
-cycling
-blading
-plants
-perfumes
-watches
-frisbee
-gals

i just love exploring new stuff... and needless to say.. these hobbies.. took up i guess.. close to $5k of my money.. actually i think more.. but the knowledge gained was worth more then wat money could buy..

i have very short attention span i guess.. same for gals.. one min i might be all hot and crazy over u.. the next.. i dun bother contacting u and stuff.. and i have absolutely NO idea y.... sigh..
but there have been soo many nice gals in my life.. i thank them truely.. though i might have hurt them b4.. but i want u guys to knw that.. i was foolish.. i still am.. these are the gals whoom i felt the most for in my life... some are not my ex.. but just gals whoom i really like.. or have an impt place in my heart.

1)pearlie
2)mei see
3)serene
4)rachel
5)wei ping
6)linda
7)dora
8)kimmy
9)jolene
10)carmen
11)steph
12)sarah
13)chelsy
14)another serene
15)lucinda
16)pei zhi
17)pei yun
18)junna
19)mariani
20)jia hui
21)regin
22)mitchelle
23)jasmine
24)melissa

well i guess thats my life story.... it has made me mature into something better and tougher.. i can clearly say.... i've experienced life enough... i'm more matured den wat i look.. lolz..
i've got a chessy msg but yeah.. here it goes

i might seem hard and tough on the outside like a piece of rock sugar, but once in contact with hot coffee, i'll melt and be the sweetest thing in ur life.. would u be my coffee?

lolz.. juraimi i KNOW ur smiling.. haha.. janna too..
yups..

i am not the perfect guy.. i am not a one-gal kinda guy. i cant.. but i want to be.. BELIEVE me :)

CRABS

2005-11-17T22:22:00.000+08:00

yeah i cooked dinner today..

menu:

chilli crab
jap peas.. if thats wat u call them
cockles
rice
bread

pics :)

ignore my face. lolz.

it has been

2005-11-12T10:56:00.000+08:00

a busy week for me..

lost of sleep man...

let me see.. on wed night brough chelsy to the docs.. at like 3am?? wtf.. and cosulation fees was like.. $50 plus ! so its like humans cant fall ill at night??? its just crazy ! den by the time she is done wif the doc it was like 4 plus.. so went over to her place to rest awhile b4 i head straight to work.. became like a zombie.. damm it.. den its work the whole damm day ! and work really sux.. so much things to do.. like collection of money for the damm flight outing.. its really troublesome..

and thur nite i went to sentosa.. the sky tower.. its crap man i tell u.. cramped and nothing much really haha.. but kinda enjoyed some moments that night.. shall not eleborate on the details.. if ur really intrested. give me a buzz. i might just tell u more juicy details lolz..

den i went to meet brian for pool and supper.. haha.. its like.. pool at 3 am till 4plus den we headed to yong tao foo.. but as expected.. its closed.. sigh.. haha.. so headed down to my place.. for the famous curry rice.. it was not ready yet.. so we kinda waited for awhile about 20mins so yeah.. haha the rice was great !! makes my mouth water now.. haha..
so yeah.. as usual.. its around 5 plus and i DID not sleep ! damm it..
went straight to work... sigh.. superb man ! i am a zombie.. haha

after work.. yest went down to meet a pal frm msia.. and yeah i was took tired to do anything actually.. so i felt kinda bad not being able to bring my friend around and stuff sigh :(

imagine that.. 2 days WITHOUT sleep.. damm it.. its like super stonned !

but yest.. had a bad news frm serene.. her grand dad passed away.. sigh.. :( my condolences to u
i have wanted to go clubbing but somehow the mood is really down so yeah.. i went down to the wake and its like everyone was staring at me.. makes me feel alien.. so yeah.. but nvm.. gotta meet her family and as i was alone.. it was kinda weird.. but nvm its alrites.. just hope to make her feel a little better..

today i dunno if soccer is still ON.. but i really wanna do some sports.. sigh.. feel damm NUAed. so yeah.. haha hope to blade.. or swim. or jog or soccer.. i just wanna do sports soo much.. after my knee is better.. i just soo wanna go back to that active lifestyle i used to have.. missed it soo damm much.. cos i knw.. once i start working in the future i will not have time for these stuff already....

was thinking about wat to do after NS..
i guess studying is not really my cuppa tea.. so i think i have decided to work. but perhaps study part time or something.. to upgrade myself.. kinda value adding myself...

i am not boasting.. but i have like 4 jobs waiting for me.. when i end my NS...
1) GE supply- GE is like one of the biggest eletronics company in the US.. and yeah they produce much more stuff haha.. so yeah, most prob might be doing sales or perhaps purchasing or engrg side... pay wise i think is average.. but wif sales commission i guess it wun be too bad.. most prob in the mid 2k range.. to start out..

2) A-star computers - basically its a average paying job.. prolly something like 1.8-2k starting..
but long working hours.. sat full day.. but job is great.. cos i meet tons of people.. and its like.. i repair lap-tops and desk tops.. but its kinda a dirty job haha.. god knws wat some people do wif the coms.. or in front of their coms.. haha pubic hair in the keyboard of the lap top.. and such stuf.. haha.. amazing !

3) hawke cables and cable glands - i have no idea.. but some contacts which i have ermm.. most prob will get me a place in the sales side.. honestly this job.. i am expecting a good 3k for start.. wif commissions.. but people might think i am just dreaming.. and setting my expectations high.. but i guess.. this job is possible.. i dunno y.. just a gut feeling.. cos the contacts is kinda of a powerful man... lolz.. its a MNC. if u dunno wat that is.. ermm.. den i guess u aint even at the same level.. so yeah.. forget abt it.. ;)

4) set up my own biz.. selling women stuff.. haha.. from funky condoms.. to the morning after pills. to clothes. to earings.. everything a women need.. tampons. pads.. basically a one-stop shop.. online shop i mean.. cos i feel starting out in a biz.. i will not wanna inccur a heafty overhead like renting a place for like 2k or more a month.. it could be used to get more stuff..
and wat i want my shop to be different is that.. all the stuff i sell are custom.. as in u will NEVER find an exactly same stuff anywhere anytime.. and how i wld go about doing so.. approach budding talents.. singapore talents.. from la salle.. or nafa.. anything.. basically i know a couple of peeps who does cloths.. designs.. printing. jewellery makers.
which gal loves to be seen in orchard wearing the SAME shirt as urself?? it sux.. and i knw it.. haha i think i understand gals more den myself at times.. so yeah.. just a concept which i have.. and hopefully wif a few IT friends.. set up a website.. and etc.. and perhaps i cld get publicity from a few areas.. like from friends.. in Ngee ann poly TV station, or frm lian he zao pao.. haha.. or some other places like my cousins.. and friends.. u knw how big a gal's mouth can be.. so yeah.. its the cheapest and most efficient way to sell.. ;)

so yeah.. the pros and cons of sales jobs..
u earn tons of money.. u have car allowence, u have basically everything u need to live a posh lifestyle.. nice restaurants, nice pubs, nice KTV places which offers special services.. etc.. its a life in the fast lane i guess.. but its like.. when ur young and doing this.. it seems okie.. but when ur older.. the smoking, the frequent beer and stuff will take a toll on ur health.. so in the end.. u end up paying medical bills.. haha

well its a year ahead till i finish my NS.. so yup..
my ride

my design

i am not that guy

2005-11-01T11:47:00.000+08:00

i am not the guy who wld buy u a dozen roses,
i wld plant a rose plant just for u

i am not the guy who could drive u in a flashy sports car,
i cld get u frm pt A to B in my small car

i am not the guy who u wld love to intro to ur friends,
i aint sociable but i am real and true

i am not the guy who wld hug u when ur feel down,
i wld pick u up if u fall

i am not the guy who cld send u a really touching sms,
i prefer to prove it wif actions

i am not the guy u wld fall for when u see me,
i'm kinda like vintange wine-gets better wif time

i am not the guy who could make u laugh when ur sad,
i wld make u feel better by giving a hug

i am not the guy who could make ur heart skip a beat,
i'm the guy who wld keep it beating

i am not the guy who u can understand overnight,
i'm actually shy-REALLY!

i am not the guy who is exciting and fun,
i prefer a slower pace in life

i am not the guy who would catch u if u fall,
i wld clean and dress ur wound

i am not the guy who speaks well,
i'll stammer if i am nervous

i am not the guy who did well in studies,
i'm well versed in general knowledge

i am not the guy who hug u to sleep,
i'll make sure ur asleep b4 i turn in

i am not the guy who could afford to bring u to posh places to dine,
i wld cook for u and bring u to the beach or a park for a meal

i am not the guy who wld get u the best doctor if ur sick,
i wld be ur nurse or maid for that day

i am not the guy who wld hold ur hand everytime we'r out,
i have sweaty palms

i am not the guy who u could understand,
but i cld try to understand u if u wish

i am not the guy who could take ur breath away in a kiss,
but i have got a tongue

i am not the guy who let u rest if ur tired,
i wld give u a massage

I AM JUST NOT THAT GUY GIRLS GO FOR!

anyway it has been a crasy weekend... two days of soccer.. both sat and sunday.. my legs were like damm damm sore.. but i went for physio on mon.. den kinda pulled the already very tight muscles.. so i went to see the doc.. and got a day's MC.. so i did not go to work.. MSG liew was kinda pissed dat i reported soo late.. it was like.. i guess i did not explain to him properly and he kinda mis-understood me.. and thot y did i report sick soo late.. the reason is simple.. i thought i could make it to physio.. den after dat report for the shift work which ends at 11pm.. but how was i to know my leg was really pain during physio.. thats y i went to see the doc.. sigh i am always mis-understood... anyway the weather dun look too good to go blading.. i might not blade actually.. due to my leg.. but since i promised anita to teach her.. i wld go down to teach her.. but doubt i will be blading due to my sore muscles..

anyway tml will be my first time going to pulau sudong.. for work.. kinda excited as well as ermm.. yeah just excited.. okies... i shall blog agian tml..

this pic is taken by me at BG... just trying a different camera angle

heard of weird?

2005-10-26T12:17:00.000+08:00

life is weird... its like i met her only for once.. and its like whoO!
cant help thinking abt her all day and nite.. damm it..
am i just kinda lonely and "hungry" wanting to eat any gal that comes my way?? or its just pure instant attraction. shes not even PRETTY! she doesnt have a hot bod.. too small for my taste actually.. but its just like u wonder.. how does lard, noodles, black sause, hum and other things.. just come together pefectly to make a plate of char kuey teow.. its like.. u can dislike lard, noodles or any of the ingredients.. but yet u love char kuey teow.. its damm damm un-explainable... lolz..

i guess its the femine kinda giggle that triggered my hungry hormones.. and no i din know how the hell i feel that way.. it has been ages since i last met a gal whoom can make me feel that way..
its like pure ! def no sex on my mind.. feelings are like the time in sec school where i first held a gal's hand.. its dat kinda rush.. clean, nice, exciting, racing heart, sweaty palms kinda aw.. so sweet and wonderful feeling !

i do admit i mostly look at gals frm a "sex" sorta point.. but this gal has zero sex appeal. lolz.. not the kinda gal i wanna bed.. more of the kinda gal whoom i wld enjoy hugging or cuddle under my large queen size quilt and ofcos my cosy bed.. :) perhaps over a nice massage or some jazz music in the background.. complete wif scents and candles.. just that feeling.. its amazing.. she blows me apart. woo~ cant wait to see her agian.. she rox ! if ur reading dis.. ermm.. i guess u knw its u.. so yeah.. dis post is dedicated to u.. sorry i dun really like mentionng names..

the reason behind this is dat.. i could go around be a bastard and telling every gal that this post is for her.. lolz.. ;) wat a jerk !@!! and now the trade secret is out.. lolz... well its one of those "tricks" i taught alan.. never mention a gal's name, dun let her feel secured.. u might say gals look for security in man.. yes precisely.. but lets take for example

guy A is a very good and nice gentleman who doesnt flirt, only have 2 ex gfs and is like.. full of security...
guy B is a player who has like 20-30 ex gfs.. haha alan thats U ! dun give me that sly smile. lolz. yeah.. he doesnt give any gal the sense of security at all..

if u ask me wat gals go for.. i tell u its guy B.. why?

the reson is simple.. lets take a jig-saw for refrence... would u have a sense of achievement by completing a 50piece jig-saw puzzle? or a 1000piece one?
the answer wld be the the second.. cos we humans.. just love to push our limits and do not want something so safe and secure.. theres not challenge involved. thats y...
the gals just wanna have a sense of satisfaction upon being abt to make a guy settle down and "change" to be the tame pussy from the once wild lion..

if u do agree... do drop me a tag ;) lolz..

sometimes i sing a song wif the guitar.. makes me happy and kinda.. on cloud nine. lolz.. dats dumb yeah.. i think so too..

anyway it has been ages since i last posted.. cos there is nothing much.. or rather i have been lazy and tired frm work.. two sats have been burnt becos of work.. that sux !

below is a pic of that gurl. whoom i met at villa bali.. yes i look fat and ugly.. cos i really am.. i aint ugly.. its just i aint phototgenic.. lolz..

MOMO

2005-10-02T17:42:00.000+08:00

wanted to go to momo yest but due to alan being late.. we missed the slots to get into momo for free.. so decided to go down to china black as it can permit 2.. wif the help of his friend's membership card.. alan and brian and me went down to CB.. hrmph.. not very happening there.. think all the crowd went to MOMO although the music at MOMO sux ! really it does.. it only starts to sound good when ur tipsy haha.. and can basically dance to any music.. hindi or wateva!

did i mention i met quite a couple of peeps at momo, one of them.. kenji, my air force friend.. yeah.. haha and another gurl.. kinda forgot her name.. think its ziyi or something.. which happens to be wif the group one guys and one of them being alan's BMT buddy.. lolz.. singapore is soo damm farking small man.. cant believe it..

den at ard 3.. went over to henderson for the famous mouth watering.. cheap and good and wonderful yong tau foo.. just sweet man ! wait till u tried it.. u wun wanna eat yong tao fu anywhere else.. trust me ! so if ur game for supper just leave me a msg.. i could bring u there.. provided u aint staying too far ;) petrol prices are high.. and i am on lazy ass.. yeah lolz..
best option is that u have ur vehicle and u fetch me over.. since its soo near my area..

did i mention i wanted to go skate yest?? but ended up going home and then to club y? cos i have a fucking big fat blister on the ball of my feet.. cant even walk properly now.. blister is cause my soccer agian! haha.. yups.. the not "seasoned" shoes as well as the hot floor.. the sun was blistering.. thus i got a blister.. haha thats lame..

so yeah after soccer.. went home and bathe etc.. den club den supper den home and yeah its a new day...

its sunday now and dun really feel like going out.. sigh.. cos my tank is almost empty plus going out means spending money and i really have got zilch..
currently looking for a rich sugar mummy.. dang~ haha that sounds kinky man.. anyway i have a fetish for older, taller gurls.. cos those small mei mei kinda gurls.. are too easy to get perhaps.. i need constant challenges to keep my adrenaline up and pumping.. yeah.. i am a whore for speed and excitement.. loves new stuff.. everyday every hour.. i cant really settle down yet.. just give me a month or two and its like.. eating friend oysters everyday.. i wonder how its possible man..
imagine those peeps who are married for like 40-50 years.. i really wonder..

many said i just havent found the right one.. but i think its just said to make me feel less bad about myself.. cos i am a jerk. and i knw it deep inside.. i am just too tired to go into another r/s.. flings are good enough i guess.. although a little empty but i dislike commitment.. so yeah.. single is the way..

yup tml i am working PM shift.. frm 3-11 which is one of the fave shift cos. i love going out and working in the dark.. i hate the sun.. its too hot and i am a puss.. i willl melt and become a puddle of fatty green yellowish phlem.. but i wanna go to pulau sudong.. y?? the reasons cant be stated here.. in case my CO or OC is reading this.. haha u never knw man.. look at those case of teachers reading blogs.. etc..

i might wanna buy the car below as well.. still looking around.. no solid plans at the moment yet though

Carmen's Bday

2005-09-11T10:36:00.000+08:00

it was fun.. but guess something really spoilt my mood... shant elaborate too much on it.. but i guess.. its just a day where some stuff just switch ur mood off.. yeah.. hope u like the present me serene and syawal got for u.. they are outdoor socks.. meant for ur everest quest training.. :) yeah.. and wa lao.. u need to loose weight haha.. ;) it was tiring carrying u to the pool ya knw??

haha.. but theres a saying, if u aint heavy, u aint carmen.. ;)
anyway i think i am bad at handling r/s.. mine wif serene is kinda on the rocks..
somehow i feel that we are too different or of a different frequency.. i dun really knw actually...
its sad man.. its the exams period for her and i have to make her go thru these crescendo and decrescendo (i knw its used for music mainly and yes i went to dictionary.com to check the spelling) haha ;) oops : x
yeah.. i am sorry for the ups and downs at this crucial period of the year..
i guess yesterday night was a combination of mei see, denise, serene and dora that kinda make things a little gloomy..
its just one of those days which gals call PMS i guess.
there is a nice t-shirt which says..
" my excuse for being a bitch is PMS.. wats yours for being a jerk?"
haha.. its a sunday and nah i did not go flying as.. couldnt wake up.. yeah.. so here i am blogging away.. showing my wandering thoughts...
yes syawal.. u haven't paid me for the present ! haha u can run but u cant hide :P yeah.. dun worry dora, i aint pissed at u.. and syawal buck up man.. she is so near alredi.. :) a few more rounds and we'll be thru.. lalalal~

well damm it tml is another farking day in the air force.. screw toh week KIAT.. farker.. still dare to call me yesterday to ask me abt the things regarding the store.. i am not a regular u knw?? u are.. so jolly well work more since they are paying u to do so.. they are not paying me $400 and to work like a coolie.. tell u wat.. i pay u $400 and u must do wateva i say.. hows that for a good deal huh? i tell u to carry heavy stuff.. sweat like dog... want u to greet me every morning every noon.. u cant complain, u cant say no.. all u have to do is just work.. take daT ! bitch...

yeah.. below are my hamsters ! hope the two i gave to mei see are still alive.. :)
mine are black bears.. i kinda regret selling them away.. sigh.. summore its an ah beng.. who wanna breed them for profits.. fark.. thinking back i feel so dumb agreeing to sell it to him..
here they are.. for memories.. nah i did not give them any name -_- *shrugs

faggot

2005-09-08T18:33:00.000+08:00

well today wasnt that bad.. but glad to know my left knee is now about the same strength as my right.. :) did some light jogging at the threadmill this morning during physio.. sharon(my physio therapist) was actually quite pleased wif my progress.. :) she is kinda hot if u dun know haha.. ;)
yeah.. after the excercises.. went to to visit alan and have some crispy noodles.. and the couter gurl was kinda plump but quite nice.. y?

cos she forgot to put veggies into my plate.. she served it in a small bowl after i was seated..
wow.. where do u get such nice ppl.. i certainly will not do so in a situation like this.. i will go like..
who cares.. lolz.. yeah.. after dat went home and prepared to go to work..

well work hasnt been good for the past week or so.. i was tired thats y i did not really blog much..
packing the damm store.. and while the farking store ic which is TOH WEE KIAT aka faggot TOH.. he is the damm in-charge and the store isnt done completely and yet he could go to escort prem.. escort the guy to DH which stands for detention barracks.. aka as a prison in the army... yeah.. he had to be hand-cuffed together. damm gay can? haha.. well faggot toh is a gay.. and i think the whole sqn knows that.. well and today.. he left a list of things for whoever is there to do.. its like.. hello! its ur job and u just write a note telling others wat to do and u go to sudong.. and have an off day tml.. wtf.. i have to cover ur god damm gay ass! farker.. i'm feeling damm sick of my air force.. for those who thinks air force is a great place to be.. working wif aeroplanes.. etc.. ur soo wrong.. its just a place where people are two-faced.. sigh.. all the actors.. and yet being paid good money.. mind u ! its all our parent's money alrite??

well kinda tired now.. shall stop here :)

this pic tells a story.. :)
forgot who the artist is : x haha

Spectacular Sunday

2005-08-28T20:34:00.000+08:00

yesterday was great.. went shopping at bugis.. den modified my plane.. to make it perform better :) haha.. yeah and got a present for christina.. its her birthday chalet at nite.. so yeah.. bought her a hand bag.. a retro style kinda look lolz..
bought it from mui tiang.. my sec sch friend.. its actually a small shop located at bugis village.. rental is about 1.6k/mth hrmph.. i might say.. its VERY ex.. considering the superb small floor area.. lolz.. but ofcos there are things to make it worth.. like the crowd.. it was crasY!.. damm it.. and yesh it was sweaty.. darn !! and parking was a killer.. shity man.. lolz.. ended up parking at parco bugis junction's heavy vehicle's parking lot... haha and yes it not free *faints*

den after the shopping went down to fetch syawal from pasir ris mrt.. den down to the chalet.. i bought my planes cos i wanted to stay the night initially.. but no one i really knw was going to stay.. so dropped the idea and went home early.. at ard 10+ yeah.. haha.. anyway christina happy birthday to u.. hope u like the bag.. its frm me syawal and pohseng...

slept at around 11 den.. this morning woke up at 7+ den went down to jurong and fly plane.. and PHEW... almost crashed one of the guy's training plane.. omg!!! super scary man.. i dun have a "license" to fly my own plane yet.. haha but yes.. it has been proven flyable.. lolz.. meanwhile i guess i will have to practice alot more.. and hopefully next few weeks i can fly my own !! :) well.. i went and witnessed about 3-4 crashes.. 2 fatal.. one death.. resulting in retiring of one of the planes.. sad la :( but i guess today the wind was super un-predictable.. and yeah.. strong.. and wif dark clouds.. luckily it din rain.. so its considered a good day i guess..

after flying went to meet alan and shi hui.. den went to eat at some duck stall.. its pretty good i must say.. its near bugis side.. so if u wanna have duck wif me.. just drop me an sms :) den proceeded to beach road.. ended up walking and shopping.. so bought a jungle hat which i lost in a cycling trip to desaru yup.. so i got myself a new one.. its BLACK ! how cool is that ! haha.. yeah.. den alan went to sew his CPL rank.. and we ate ah balling.. yesh its great man.. my fave peanut :) hahaha

after all the eating and shopping we went to habourfront to buy some 512mb mp3 player wif cool radio reciever, thumb drive, i think 6 colour back light to choose from.. for only a MERE $78 !!! can u believe it?? yes! if only i was less broke.. i would have been a proud owner of one of those.. but we had to Q for like 45 mins or something.. aint too sure.. but there is a fantastic offer tml.. $159 for a DVD player wif surround sound.. i think 4 speakers plus a woofer.. hrmph.. not a bad deal.. i believe it does make habour front more lively a place to visit.. but once the new cine plex opens.. it will be the NEXT big thing.. and the BESt thing is that.. its soo freaking near my place.. hoho ho..

dinner was good.. me, my sis and BIL had chicken.. baked by me :) haha.. and rice.. veggies, soup.. nothing really fancy.. but nothings beats a home cooked meal.. its just that today dinner was short of one special person in my life.. and yeah.. :(
but its alrite.. i have got soooo many more dinner to go ;) hopefully there will be a chance, yeah there will be..

now its after dinner and yes... just slacking in front of my tv.. :)
here is a pic of today's planes..
click---> http://img135.imageshack.us/img135/4663/image278medium6pf.jpg
my plane is yellow wif the red cross :)

The Maid

2005-08-23T23:25:00.000+08:00

haha this movie rox lah.. the maid is kinda hot can? yeah haha.. but besides the show.. the company was great ! it has been ages since i last met up wif her and finally today is the day..

but sad lah.. cos we had to rush to finish our noodles at the food court as we were kinda late.. but just in time.. haha.. anyway this movie is good as in the scary part doesnt ALWAYS happens at night or in the dark.. really great twist to horror movies.. lurve this scary movie.. i wld rate it 8/10 :) well after the super cold and shivering moments in the cinema.. i brought her to the place where i fly my plane.. yeah.. that empty field.. yeah it was quiet and peaceful.. kinda nice to just sit in the car.. listening to music and chatting abt the past and everything.. :) just chatting ;) haha.. shall not give too many juicy details.. its personal u know? and i'm shy, just like most of u reading would already knw.. if u disagree ermm.. well too bad :P haha..

today work was very tiring but fun.. as we "destroyed" a table.. cos one of the legs was infected by termites.. yeah.. gosh.. i bet that table is older den me.. but its damm solid man.. super hard to dismatle.. and heavy.. but after like 2-3 hrs of hitting wif the chisel and hammer and "bao zian" haha that bao zian is actually a metel rod.. behind the pick-up and it really does look like a sword.. haha.. we use it to carry the round" thingy" used to coil up cables.. is that called a reel?? aint too sure.. yeah. bao zian haha.. anyway i let my fellow air force budd try my car.. guess wat... haha
he almost ramed my car into the car in front.. haha.. lucky i left the hand brake on.. i guess cos he was not used to a non power steering car plus.. he can even see the back.. cos its covered wif car decals as well as my DIYed stickers :) anyway my car back tyre is giving me problems.. after patching it up at alan's father's shop.. sigh.. will be going back agian this sat or something..
cos i have to pump every two days or so.. cos the air is leaking.. slowly but surely.. sigh.. soo troublesome.. alrite.. its late.. i got to go man.. tml morning is physio.. sigh.. another tiring morning :(

its taken at the same secret location :)

flying...

2005-08-20T19:21:00.000+08:00

i'm damm excited like a 3yr old kid getting his favourite toy car on his birthday.. my plane is fixed up and just waiting to go.. but its like 7am tml morning *faints* and the place where i'm other fliers is in jurong.. the land of the sacred WEST goshh! haha.. damm far can? petrol prices are rising and yah.. haha

tonite is sat night and i'm home agian haha.. well wat to do.. broke and stuff.. dun feel like going out and spend my little of wat i have.. was supposed to go blading wif some friends.. but last min their side cant get to book the bbq pit or something.. so here i am haha.. did i mention i bought angels and devil, the book written but the author of the the da vincci's code.. y? hahah i guess i'm also kinda like a gurl.. lolz.. when ur sad u feel like just spending money.. lolz.. i bet u gurls knw exactly how i feel man... i bought it before the damm car insurance robbed my bank.. dang~

anyone of my friends li sien, she just went for a similiar knee surgery as mine two days back.. it was a sucess and thats good, she is beginning to start to walk slowly w/o the crutches.. this is great.. lolz.. but the good thing is that she din have to stay the night.. i did !! and guess wat.. haha
hospital food is damm ex lolz.. if i remembered the bill correctly(3-4 mths back) its around $40+ for meals.. which is like 2 breakfasts, 1 lunch and a dinner.. which sux totally.. if its awesome food.. $40+ wouldnt matter haha.. its really dumb to make me stay the night.. which i couldnt sleep well, wif a crimal hand cuffed to the bed diagonally beside my bed, a man who i think got slashed in his neck in front of me.. which can speak some language which no one understands.. think its some indian dialect. or blangala haha if there is such a language.. the amazing thing was that i could walk slowly w/o the crutches the next morning after the op on the previous noon. haha :) most people cant.. i'm rare.. now i'm a proud owner of a new knee complete wif a ligament which is actually my hamstring and two screws and some bones which have holes drilled thru..

damm.. wat can u do in singapore w/o spending money.. i really ponder.. haha last nite went ktv wif joyce at chinatown.. it was great.. although i'm not a big fan of the KTV cos i cant read chinese songs and i dun know many chinese songs.. haha.. and english songs always have those ang moh ladies holding their scarfs and running along the beach.. wif the flower in the hair or near some fountain.. haha it cracks me up.. many of the songs aint even sung by orginal artists.. haha.. yes i sing english songs.. which aint really good.. except for "better man" by robbie william.. which i think i did quite well.. it was damm cold in the small cramped room wif only me and her.. and we.. we.. did nothing.. i went back to my car to get my jacket and then smuggled macdonalds into the room.. haha it was great having hot fries and the meal.. i paid for the meal and she for the ktv.. thanks joyce :) ur great!! next time will be my turn alrite?? that will be like next month or something.. might wanna go buy 4D like $2 from my piggy bank.. or something to see how things goes.. did i mention.. i bring about $4 worth of coins frm my piggy bank to work everday.. haha.. this is how desperate i am.. gosh.. the only time something like this happend was in sec sch.. yeah.. anyone wanna donate to the "saving gabriel" fund? lolz..

its like gals are so lucky man.. the guy picks her up, pay for dinner and stuff and then send her home.. all she have to do is be a little bitchy and just hug the guy and say thanks :) and there u go.. a free outing.. lolz.. for guys its tough.. i spent tons of money on that gal.. and once ur broke.. and she knws it.. she wun even wanna go out wif u i guess(there are exceptions, like the above gal).. if i were a gal, i wldnt as well.. lolz.. damm! gals sux.. :) *grins*

alrite i'm gg for my dinner.. i'm starving man.. catch u guys sometime soon..
below is a pic of my plane !!

this is the tail

i did all the stickers.. haha.. yupp cos the stickers they provided sux !!!
if u wanan see my sticker works.. just look at the back of my car.. those who have seen it knws :)

Torn Thursday

2005-08-11T18:42:00.000+08:00

well its her birthday today and i'm feeling damm blue.. sigh..
maybe i shldnt have called her even.. now i feel even worst.. but.. i cant really help it..
she has been lingering in my mind the whole damm fucking day.. i've got no idea man..
i cried agian while playing the guitar the night before.. wat the fuck man...
i think i should have listened to her when she said.. if u wanna be wif me.. be prepared to get hurt...
sigh i was so wrong not to listen to that advise... dumb me...
this was the song :

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience
'Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been taught
To take the blame

Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in PAIN!

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Once you've found that lover
You're homeward bound
Love is all around
Love is all around
I know some have fallen
On stony ground
But Love is all around

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doin' all I can
To be a better man

i sang this song for her.. and yeah.. kinda have to rekindle the lovely moments only in my dreams and yeah.. did i mention? i dreamt of her for 2 days in a row.. but not last nite.. perhaps cos i was kinda tired after going for supper wif ah yang.. my airforce buddie.. actually we knew each other in poly, den went to sam charlie company and then same to airforce school den same air base.. now even same section haha.. unbelievable? believe it..

can some one teach me how to get over this gal?? damm it.. its tough.. i have soo many distractions. BUT.. i still cant do it.. wat a useless fool i am.. sigh..

below is a pic of me which she took.. its indeed a master piece..
i shall name it..
Rising to hell or rather sinking to heaven?? aint sure

Weary Wednesday

2005-08-10T18:27:00.000+08:00

i'm so worn out.. sigh.. i feel like go to pengarang this sat.. but due to some financial problems.. sigh i cant.. even though i just got my pay yest.. my acc is left wif $60.. damm it.. the fucking car insurance.. i still haven paid the damm road tax.. and i'm gg to get a fine.. FUCK.. how to go settle all the stuff ! when i'm serving NS.. damm everything is just not going my way la..

rach is gone.. and yeah.. too bad for her i guess... doubt she will be able to find a guy who treats her so well.. lolz.. as if.. but i think i will be able to get a gf who doesnt treat her guy friends better den her own bf.. some one who knws how to think more maturely.. a gal who is willing to put her pride aside and admit shes wrong and yeah.. haha.. wat to do :)

but nah.. r/s stuff have got to wait.. i have more impt things to do..
1) read my new book
2) learn how to fly my new plane
3) get back to blading
4) drive slowly(saves petrol, boy does it hurt my wallet !)
5) try to get over the pain and hurt..
6) do my best to achieve all the above

below are all my BMT mates.. hope they are doing fine.. one day lets go out agian lah.. haha who wanna organise?? not me :P

Retribution

2005-08-07T23:12:00.000+08:00

well i used to be kinda a flirt when i was in my younger days..
esp in sec sch wif alan and stuf.. think i hurt many many gals... just "kia steady" (haha long time never use this kinda hockien) and break as and when i wanted.. zero feelings.. just for fun.. to hang out, to hang out, kiss, cuddle.. and everything..

but after a gal name pei yun came into my life when i was in poly 1 i think.. i kinda change alot.. as in i learnt how to love.. and not to just have a gf as an object of play or object of desire.. yes....
she did the sweetest things, like buying old chang kee squid heads and bubble tea.. haha.. when i was warded into sgh for an eye operation.. yes damm sweet rite?? and the sweetest part was i quarrelled wid her the day before. cos i did not had any good sleep cos the damm nurse will on the light every hour to put the eye drops.. yup so kinda moody.. so kinda quarrelled.. but yet the following day she bought me the squid heads and bubble tea.. and its like she wasnt frm a wealthy family.. and bubble tea costs like $2.50 or something plus the trip all the way down from her place to the bubble tea place and then to the old chang kee den down to sgh den all the way back home in bukit batok.. its like.. WOW.. haha.. yes.. she is the gal who changed my life..

then the next more serious gal was melissa.. she stays at sengkang.. we had our fair share of ups and downs.. i loved the half spring chicken rice near her place. and we wld go down and eat :) haha my fave past time.. den at that time there was no NEL yet.. so coming home to my place after sending her home by bus was super tiring.. but yah.. i did it :) she did the sweetest things as well haha.. for my birthday she gave me a box wif a candle holder which cost something like $20.. and yes its ALOT of money to her at that time.. and i really liked it alot.. its still at my candles collection dun worry :) and a pin which says sexy devil.. yeah :) *blush* lolz.. my parents laugh and everything when i wore it at the restaurant where we had my bday celebrations.. yup.. she was great actually.. but i think ppl change as time goes by.. and yup...

the next more serious gal was mei see.. she was ermm.. pretty and well endowed yup.. she speaks malay like a speak hockien.. which is pretty good ;) cos she is from ipoh and yeah.. the only sad thing was that i did not get a chance to go over.. due to NS and some other stuff yeah.. she is from the adventure seekers and this is a club which i really enjoyed and made my poly life unforgetable... yeah.. but due to my knee injury cant really join them for many of the outdoor stuff anymore.. sigh sad.. well okie back to her.. she was ermm.. also great.. as well as the nicest..
she bought me nice T-shirts.. knowing i dun really go shopping and stuff yeah.. haha.. or perhaps she was sick of seeing me in the same old clothes.. i really dun knw man.. yup she is currently attached to a guy.. which looks damm damm familiar lah.. but dun really have the chance to talk to her much.. anyway she seems happy and thats great.. :)

and yeah the gal who brought me down to tears.. we were together for a mere 2mths.. but it seems like we din really get to know each other better before going into a r/s.. just like my parents said.. y u soo fast got gf agian?? hiyo.. dun hurt the gals.. and dun get hurt lah.. i think parents really knw man.. although mine are in indo right now.. wif my sis and BIL who are there currently for a short vacation.. yeah.. they eat salt more then i eat rice.. haha.. last time rice was expensive lah.. so salt is plentiful.. :) ok rachel she did wonderful stuff. like printing my photography works.. and framing them up.. trust me man its beautifuL !!! just like her in person.. i guess the only set back was that she is kinda young and not really ready to settle down and be in a more stable and serious r/s thats wat i feel.. and yes she is 173 and i'm a mere 165.. although height might seem like a small thing.. but its like which gal wun want a strong tall shoulder to lean on and etc.. rite? i cant provide that security and yeah.. its just not really in favour of a more "normal" r/s.. i cried just... cos.. in this r/s i put in the best i ever had.. and just kinda frustrated at myself i guess.. for being useless and not able to be wif a person i truly love..
its like.. nah i dun cry much.. the last time was hmm.. let me see.. 2 yrs back over a friend haha..
yeah wun go into details abt that.. i guess i knw why gals love to cry so much.. its like.. yes u feel much better after crying.. haha.. OMG! am i turning into a GAY? hope not lolz.. wow and now the radio is play " sorry is all that u can say.. word dun come easily, i'm sorry , sorry.... baby can i hold u tonite.. .lalalala" yeah u kinda get it ya?
:) great song..

alrite.. i have got work tml and i highly doubt i can fall asleep now.. but yeah.. today is kinda like a mourning post.. so no pic.. yeah.. it marks the end of a chapter in my life.. as well as a new step into the future.. yup..

signing off
gab

Mad Monday

2005-08-01T16:41:00.000+08:00

well today was kinda fruitful day.. went down to fook hai building to look at those RC stuff.. RC stands for remote control by the way.. yeah i'm intrested to buy the RC kite.. and went searching.. well its like i'm completely lose in all the parts and stuff haha.... then i went down to riverside point to another shop. http://www.goflykite.com is the website.. din really read it properly so i went down and it was closed.. sigh.. den chit chat wif two ang mohs.. they were also down there and they too realised it was closed on mon.. sigh haha but then i went to the toilet and i came out.. guess who i saww !!!! ann poh.. haha and yes she is BIG !!! can? wow.. she is in the shop wif the owner hrmph.. his wife?? i dunno but he is one lucky ass ! haha..

they were supposed to be closed.. but think he just went back to do some work etc.. yup.. ann poh is like a business or something.. hrmph.. who knows.. anyway yeah the owner chit-chatted and stuff.. den yup.. i told him i cant afford a first hand set.. so he said he will look out for 2nd hand set for me... which estimated wld cost around $350-$400.. if it was brand new it would be around $550 for the basic set.. hrmph.. still considering.. its no small sum.. but i decided to get it.. but 2nd hand.. so hope he gets back to me soon.. kinda a reward for myself in such a down time of my life.. yeah.. ok den went back to collect my car.. and guess wat? yes !!! another ticket.. haha but lucky its a $6 ticket.. phew..

ok den went home to slack a little while and stuff.. den saw the sentosa fine .. sigh $50.. the appeal did not work.. they just reduced it from $75 to $50.. but still $25 is better den none huh? thanks sanjay for helping me write the letter.. ok now lets split the fine :) $25 pls ! haha.. den come home and now blogging.. yupp have been too sad and stuff so haven really be blogging much.. but not much ppl reading it anyway rite? haha

ok lets go to why i'm sad.. perhaps cos i lost a gal.. yes me and rach are off.. sigh.. i dunno man..
i book a pair of tickets for some sortha movie marathon lah.. showing johnny english and the incredibles.. yup it was on sun.. 1pm till 4pm.. and yes she agreed to go way way earlier.. sigh.. guess wat? she called me at 3.45pm and said sorry i just woke up... sigh.. i was kinda pissed the night before cos she said she wun go clubbing and etc.. but in the end she went and got home at 4am.. fine.. but the following day she had a date wif me at 1pm.. and ya.. its very saddening when the gal u love do such stuff man.. well to me that is very irresponsible and just not right man.. its like one of the last few days i could spend wif her since my MC expires tml.. and i wanted to spend more time wif her.. but seems like.. hiaz..so since she aint willing to in effort into the r/s wats the point of dragging it?? so here i stand.. hurt.. and sad.. but nah i'm still alive and kicking.. my knee is getting better.. hope to go back to sports in about a months time.. perhaps start some light jogging and ermm.. maybe recreational blading.. no stunts or anything thing funky haha.. just pure recreational purpose :)

below is a "tattoo" which i drew on my own leg.. just for fun :)

Slendid Saturday

2005-07-23T04:44:00.000+08:00

well its now 0439 in the morning.. yeah and i haven slept a wink.. wondering why?
i have got no idea too.. i guess its over wat rachel said over the sms..

in case u guys dun knw.. its over.. and yeah i mean its over.. like.. why? the gal of my dreams.. perhaps thats where she shld remain.. in my dreams.. but reality is something different..
instead of telling ur friends how bad ur ex was and thats y u break up.. i shall differ..
why is rach a really nice gal?
1) she is pretty and i mean really pretty
2) she is artistic which is sexy
3) she loves photography which is something i admire
4) she loves her family and this is really impt to me
5) she gave me a great photo frame for my bday
6) her hugs just fits into mine. just like ur fave t-shirt
7) her braces is nice.. purple.. haha my fave colour
8) she washes the dishes and does a wonderful job
9) she loves my bed, well who doesnt?
10) she doesnt laugh when i sing those cheesy love songs to her

i think 10 is enough to state here.. the rest will be in my heart.. y is it humans think wif their minds but yet claims the heart can talk ! haha.. wonderful huh.. well well.. although it has been a short 1mth+ wif her.. its damm short to be honest.. but nevertheless it has been a fruitful lesson in life by which i cld learn even till this ripe age of 22 haha.. it has been one of my greatest pleasure getting to know this charming lady. she will be remembered and i pray she wld have a wonderful journey wif god and thanks to those friends who are there for u.. in case ur reading dis..
yeah.. namely, woon, van, and yah u knw who u are.. thanks for everything, all the advise. and stuff
and instead of thanking her friends.. i wld like to thank mine as well..
tks diana for ur advises.. haha.. yeah.. its u! nana...
well well okie.. i have got to catch the ZzzZ monster..

To rach,
u wld be happier and dats impt in life.. i will be happier too i guess.. thanks for all u have done. i really appreciate it.. though i might not have told u in person.. but yes i do :)
all the best in all ur future undertakings..

signing off,
gab

Same old Sunday

2005-07-17T12:25:00.000+08:00

well its a sunday and yeah.. i'm home.. y??
cos my gurl is at church and yup.. kinda had a quarrel and yeah.. kinda bored.. so here i am blabbing away haha..
was talking to emma the previous night abt r/s and its like.. i dunno how do couples be together for soo sooo sooo long like a year? omg.. its like i never had such a long r/s b4 and i hate to say i will just be bored wif that same gurl.. i really wonder how my parents or couples continue to stay together for years and years ! gosh.. unbelievable... doing the same stuff.. gg to the same places.. etc.. gosh
dun worry i aint bored of my gal yet.. NOT YET! haha but i dunno man... she is giving me the cold shoulder now.. and yeah.. kinda feeling a little under the weather.. but still its alrite..
she claims all the projects and stuff are killing her time and stuff.. but its like she knew it was my birthday long time ago.. and guess wat.. i did not recieve ANYTHING from her.. its like.. my friends sent me smses and greetings.. even serene was nice.. wanted to treat me to dinner but i had something on so cant make it.. sorry abt that man ! well its not like i'm desperate for presents but its more like a gesture man.. not even a present man.. unbelievable?? believe it.. and she claims its like.. busy.. more like.. not putting effort at all.. but in the end she gave me a belated bday present which i like to bits.. just that i din really show it.. perhaps cos i'm bad at expressing myself.. but something is for sure :)
despite wat she has done or wat she hasnt done.. she still stands a place in my heart.. a big part a big space.. and

WTF !!! i accidentally deleted ALL my bday shots !!! help me.. anyone?? sigh well well i wanted to post up the pics of my bday celebration and its like sigh.. all gone.. too bad.. no pic for today.. shity day man.. gosh !!!!
ok here is one.. edited version :)

Birthday

2005-07-13T12:22:00.000+08:00

tml is my birthday and its like.. hrmm.. mixed feelings..
i kinda felt sad for my friend syawal who spent his b'day at home yest.. but dun worry ok bro! lets celebrate tml ! which is my birthday !!
still dunno where to go yet... most prob swensen cos on ur bday u will get a free fire something la haha.. yeah.. wat a cheapo me.. but wat to do... i'm a poor guy ahaha..

kinda sad cos my gurl ermm.. she might not be to make it for my b'day dinner and stuff due to her project work.. but its ok lah.. projects are more impt really ! anyway there is always still next year right?? so dun worry abt my bday alritey? just do wat u shld do ! :)

yesterday was a superb day.. i threw out almost half of my room.. and now its neat and tidy !! trust me.. those who came to my house b4 knws the mess right? haha.. its now tidy and great.. y? cos i went for physio yest morning.. den went to ikea and spent $122 on a quilt, quilt cover, carpet and bed protector.. yeah.. wat a bomb.. ! i think its cos i spent so much thats y it makes me wanna clear up my room to make it neater and nicer.. but well well well.. i hope i can maintain it that way man..

this pic is taken frm my house.. in the morning of my sis's wedding.. where i had to sleep in the hall as her "sisters" slept in moi room.. grrr

shout out

2005-07-07T18:40:00.000+08:00

sometimes u just wanna let go and throw everything away.. it reminds me of a song who i can barely remember.. it was during a church camp in sentosa...

it goes like,
when the clouds in your life starts to cover up your day.
u start to feel so lonely cos nothing goes ur way.
u may tell urself it hopeless, theres nothing more to do.
u just wanna throw it all away and believe that u are thru.
but in these times of dissapointment, its pretty hard to carry on.
but theres a someone who will hold u, lift u up and say.
family we are family, u are one by my grace, u are surrounded by my love.
let us raise our voice and sing
to the whole world knws
we are part of god's great family.

its amazing how i could still remember this song man.. i was like say 10 or 11 and i'm like 22 now.. yeah imagine that ! haha..
if u wanna hear me sing this just give me a call..
anyway.. however hard and tough this life journey wif rach is gg to be.. i will try to make it work. cos i'm sick of flirting and stuff.. one women in my life is good enough.. i guess haha..
yup. she is almost wat i ever wanted in a gurl. though never perfect. but nevertheless shes the one.. :)

below is my gurl.. taken by me ! haha.. she looks great rite? well.. she is better on the inside. for sure ! the photo is shaky. this is to make the pic more "alive" and have the moving factor inside.. hope u guys like it..

Sunny sunday

2005-07-03T11:58:00.000+08:00

yeah its a sunday and its all bright and sunny!

ok the word sunny is kinda funny cos it reminded me of an incident in my sec sch.. we were playing soccer at blangah rise primary school illegally ofcos... cos we climbed in and then i think some residents complained and yeah the police were here.. haha and there is this in bastard.. guess wat he asked me '? ay! u boy or girl? haha cos i have like shoulder length hair den.. dun bother to try to imagine.. cos its ermm.. just not possible.. and yeah the police man who asked me that dumb question is named sunny.. gosh.. doesnt that sound gay or something? lolz..

ok i havent been blogging for the past few days as its kinda weird.. posting my thots online.. and its my first ! i'm a virgin at this man.. so yeah.. it was a great night yesterday..

i and rach went to bedok to fetch sanjay(my army budd) cos his bike is kinda spoilt.. as in the headlights.. so he cant ride at nite.. yeah den we went down to lim chu kang side.. some jungle where army peeps do their training.. in search of none other then DURIANS ! my fave man.. yummy.. and guess wat? i parked the car outside the gate den we walk for like 10-15mins into a jungle.. tons of ants up my pants and mozzies and etc.. we did found durians but ! they were either eaten by ants or by people.. sigh.. in the end.. did not find any that could be consume w/o dying of ants.. or something.. but it was kinda great consolation.. we found two rambutans.. and i mean TWO.. yes.. they tasted kinda nice.. perhaps cos its a tough trip in and a long drive from my place to bedok and then to lim chu kang.. its like south-east-west of sigapore.. haha.. but the lucky thing is that.. petrol is 25% so not that bad on my pocket.. den met up wif alan after the trip into the jungle.. and we headed down to west coast mac.. to have supper and stuff.. haha..

sanjay had to go sentosa to meet his friends..so sent him in.. and i drove straight thru w/o even paying... haha and the gal at the counter was like.. waving and trying to stop me.. but i pretended not to see the lady and yeah.. drove him there.. wanted to bring rach to some parts of sentosa which is kinda nice.. but we were both tired and i had a slipping headache... so yeah.. headed home..

its a great sunny sunday today.. so guys at the beach.. u have fun man.. i will be joining u guys once my knee gets better.. cya !

the pic below is a shot of a toad or frog.. i dun care.. one of my few tries at animals.. or ermm.. yah.. i seldom do live pic.. i prefer more.. landscape and stuff..

Empty

2005-06-27T19:13:00.000+08:00

well it has been a tough day man.. woke up and stuff..
dreamt abt my keys.. and yesh ! i lost dem.. the previous night and tried to find it this morning.. but.. as expected.. its gone.. my car keys, my keys to my Air-Force locker, my house keys.. all gone and not to mention.. my fave key holder.. gosh.. it has been a spinning week.. filled wif ups and downs..

think i did a big mistake this morning in losing my temper at Rach.. but wat is done is done. i wun run away frm a fact that its my fault.. but somethings pride just gets in the way and its just hard to say u are sorry.. i bet u knw wat i mean man.. i haben got much time to blog for the last few days as my gurl Rach is sick and kinda had to take care of her.. hope she gets well soon man..

yeah.. and just came back frm watching initial D.. ermm.. not a bad show.. but would prefer more.. engine talk and more car stuff.. haha.. i'm a tech freak.. loves those stuff since young.. but overall i wld rate it a 7/10....

kinda have a headache right down.. think i have been thinking too much abt her man.. and my small brain cant really take all that processing... :) anyway attached below is a pic of my dream car.. its not a fancy porche or a ferrari or something like that.. cos these cars have no character..
but my fave car has it ! haha.. its a MG... convertable as u can see.. one day i will buy this baby ! when i'm like 70 or something.. and ofcos wif some 19yr old babe beside ;)

sick

2005-06-23T01:20:00.000+08:00

well today noon.. went for lunch wif jia hui at bugis.. den went to settle some bills and ofcos! my driving fines.. haha wat else am i famous for man.. yeah.. den accompany her to some hair acadamy place.. kinda waited but i was kinda sleepy so when home..
and darn! the market closes so early.. i wanted to get ermm..
1) eggs
2) garlic
3) long beans
4) tofu<------------ haha i love to eat this ! yeah managed to get most except the tofu so was kinda dissapointed haha.. den my sis bought some bbq chix drum stick rice for me.. it was great ! being the meat-eater me... my babe is sick so bought panadol and the famous tiong bahru porridge for her and went over to her place.. den martin came and pass me the fags.. yeah.. den chit chat awhile den she came over to stay tonite.. i wanna take care of her.. just like a doctor and she shall be the nurse.. hur hur! ;) yeah i will try to put a pic to every post.. a pic a day keeps the viewers away :)

this is a pic of my gurl... the pink is achieved using a pink filter given by my cousin-cecil... hope u guys like it.. do leave comments or tags man.. although my tag board is kinda not well done up.. but bear wif me !

My Virgin Post

2005-06-22T00:43:00.000+08:00

these shots are taken by ofcos me.. at the botanic gardens